[Almost] Rebound Love

Assalamualaikum,

I am one of the person on this earth who did not understand how rebound love work. I know the term and I've seen it happen. It is just that, the arrogant side of me once said: Nah... That would not happen to me. But being in this post-break up situation, I begin to see the mechanics of rebound love.

Before I start, let me clarify that this entry is based on my own experience. It's something I'd like to share.

Loving the same guy for almost 6 years changed who I am. Love softens me, as I always said. It's not that he wanted me to change or I change because of him. I change because I wanted to be better. I learnt to love and be loved. I even prepare myself for the future. Some wait until the rain come for renovation. I believe in forecasting and making the necessary renovation before it happen.

Before I realized it, I am used to love and commitment. When I lost my love, I was left with incomplete nerve ends; an incomplete circuit. This is when I see the fundamental of rebound love. I felt the urgency to find a replacement over the fact that I am still healing myself. The only reason my self could give me is that there is excessive energy in me when everything did not work as it did for these 6 years -- the loving and committing in a relationship part.

I was urged to find a guy to ease that excessive energy. Because my self needs to love and commit in a relationship as she did all these years.
So that I can have a person to SMS good morning and good night.
Hello, 'Aini!
I couldn't believe I can have that awfully ridiculous thought.

Luckily my inner self was honest enough to tell me the truth. If not, I'd be fooled. I might think I am able to love again or I might depend over a guy and believe that he is required in my healing process. Oh that is so gross.

Detoxification is required, as soon as possible.

Wassalam.

Comments

Fleur Vinca said…
well my dear, what a coincident. this is what i read from ur daily inspirational quote;

'We must make the choices that enable us to fulfill the deepest capacities of our real selves.
..................................... Thomas Merton'

i planned to write a different comment, but that quote simplify everything. :)

best of luck.. :D
'Aini said…
thanks fifah... decision made. plan executed. though, i'm following the speed limit :D
KC aka Fadli said…
Detoxification is a must. If not, pity the next guy who is going to think he is a lucky guy :-)

Btw, I am just wondering if Angel's gender is a male. You know like Gabriel the Angel.

If it is a male, well, he is the best candidate for a rebound love (minus the ability to text of course)
'Aini said…
Angel is a girl :D
If I want anything male, the name would be Edward :p

Everyday is detox day!

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