Saturday, December 29, 2012

Dusk

Assalamualaikum,

It is 2:53 AM, 29 December 2012. I don't plan to stay up this late; I am supposed to sleep as soon as I am done setting up the laptop. That was before I started working on the recently taken photographs - Dani Mikhael and some photos near Jerejak Island.

My photography activity has slowed down significantly this year. It is not because I was not inspired or don't have time for it. I guess somehow the feeling of loneliness manage to creep it way... It is not fun anymore thinking that I would be 'enjoying' this photography activity alone.

I guess photography makes me miss my friends even more. Pictures without them are emptiness. Sigh.

Okay, this entry is not supposed to be sad. Because as much as I am lonely, how could I not be happy when my friends are in great condition? I am happy :)

So this picture is one of the pictures I took near Jerejak Island. To be specific, it was taken from Seri Pantai Ikan Bakar restaurant, at dusk, while waiting for our dinner. I did have the scene in color, but as you know, I am monochrome lover.

I was a quiet evening. Loneliness is the inspiration. But when I look at this picture a while ago, I find it very suitable for below phrase. Especially now.

Wassalam.  

"There is only one day left, always starting over: it is given to us at dawn and taken away from us at dusk." - Jean-Paul Sartre


Monday, December 10, 2012

Loud and Busy


Assalamualaikum,

This is just the time of the year where I would trade my soul for some additional minutes to my 24 hours. Time flies like arrow and fruit flies [still] like banana. And I am filling my brain with as much air as I can in one big gulp - and start working.

So I believe all entry will have to wait. Oh I have so many half-way entries!

It's time for loud and elegance music.
Why loud - so that my mind would be too scared to wander around and stays in focus. Why elegance - merely a drop of style. Ha.
Maybe CN Blue, Vivaldi and The Piano Guys.

Off. For now.
Wassalam.

Friday, November 16, 2012

Gaza: Peluang ke Syurga

Assalamualaikum,

Jumaat pertama tahun ini.
Namun hati sayu dan sedih dengan perkhabaran derita di Gaza. Benarlah, serangan ke atas Gaza pada awal Muharram adalah satu penghinaan ke atas umat Islam - Muharram adalah salah satu bulan suci di mana peperangan adalah diharamkan.

Perlukah dan dapatkah kata-kata menggambarkan penghinaan dan penganiayaan besar tersebut?

Terdetik di hati pada pagi Jumaat yang mulia ini: "Ya, teruskanlah kehinaan kamu itu. Teruskanlah jadikan bumi Gaza itu lorong-lorong dan platform ke syurga. Teruskanlah jadikan bumi Gaza itu tempat bagi hamba yang sabar dan redha dengan ujian Allah. Teruskanlah buka peluang kepada para pejuang Islam untuk menemui Maha Pencipta dalam keadaan syahid."

Setiap kali menatap gambar-gambar jenazah dari Gaza, tiada lagi air mata, hanya doa dan redha mereka kembali kepada Allah: "Seorang lagi ahli syurga, InshaAllah."


Teruskanlah meramaikan ahli syurga!

Di dalam kelemahan, kupanjatkan doa memohon sejahtera kepada saudara-saudaraku di Gaza dan tempat-tempat lain yang menerima penindasan yang sama.

Ya Allah Tuhanku Yang Maha Mengetahui,
Hantarkanlah bantuan kepada saudara kami yang ditindas,
Dengan bantuan yang baik dari Pengetahuan-MU Yang Maha Luas,
Yang memberi keuntungan untuk mereka pada hari Kebangkitan yang pasti.
Ya Allah Tuhanku Yang Maha Lemah Lembut,
Tetapkanlah dan teguhkanlah hati serta iman mereka di jalan-MU.
Jadikanlah mereka hamba-MU yang sabar dengan ujian-MU.
Dan bukan hamba-MU yang berputus asa dan marah dengan ujian-MU.
Ya Allah Tuhanku Yang Maha Memberi Balasan Yang Baik,
Jadikanlah mereka hamba-MU yang syahid,
Yang berjuang hanya kerana-MU dan pada jalan-MU,
Sesungguhnya tiada balasan yang lebih elok bagi mereka melainkan balasan yang telah Engkau janjikan.

Ya Allah Tuhanku Yang Maha Agung,
Bersihkanlah hati kami yang berada di luar kemelut penganiayaan ini,
Semoga lahir belas kasihan dan kemanusiaan terhadap saudara kami,
Agar kami tidak lupa diri dan melupai kebajikan sesama kami,
Janganlah hati kami dibiarkan mati.

Amiin Ya Rabb.

Wassalam.

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

Azam 1434H

Assalamualaikum,

29 Zulhijjah 1433H.
Hari terakhir untuk tahun ini.

Refleksi

"Hablumminallah Wa Hablumminannas". Begitu azam aku menjelang 1433H yang lalu. Aku berazam untuk memperbaiki hubungan dengan Allah dan dengan manusia. Poin penting: kerendahan hati tinggi nilainya, sabar itu mahal harganya dan kembali kepada fitrah sebagai seorang hamba yang bertuhankan Allah Yang Maha Tinggi itulah kuncinya. Tiada lagi jalan lain, melainkan Jalan Yang Satu.
Bukan mudah menggabungkan ketiga-tiganya. Terasa dunia terlepas dari genggaman... Tapi itulah poinnya: belajar melepaskan dunia (bukanlah sampai tidak ambil kisah langsung!) dan berikan ruang dalam jiwa dengan kemahuan terhadap akhirat. Yang mendapat akhirat, pasti mendapat dunia. InshaAllah.
Soalan "sudah tercapaikah?".
Jawapannya, masih memperbaiki hari demi hari.

Azam 1434H

Pertamanya, perlu dilanjutkan operasi "Hablumminallah Wa Hablumminannas" ke tahun seterusnya. Terasanya masih belum cukup rasa.

"Bila kamu taat kepada Allah, hati kamu akan bahagia. Sekurang-kurangnya jika kamu sedang bermasalah dengan dunia, kamu tahu kamu tidak bermasalah dengan Tuan Punya Dunia." - Hilal Asyraf -

Keduanya, ingin menuntut ilmu rumahtangga dan keibu bapaan. Kenapa? Kerana banyak perkara bermula di rumah dan kembali ke rumah. Membina sebuah keluarga Islam yang hidup dengan roh Islam umpama membina sebuah empayar [Islam]. Takkan terbina dengan sendiri, takkan terbina dalam sehari, takkan terbina tanpa ilmu.

Semoga Allah lindungi hati dari perasaan riak dan bangga diri. Semoga Allah pelihara daripada pujian nafas syaitan yang melalaikan. Semoga Allah hijabkan daripada pandangan yang berniat buruk atau berkesudahan yang merugikan. Ya Allah, kami mohon redha-MU untuk hijrah kami. Amiin Ya Rabb.

Maha Suci Engkau Ya Allah. Aku memuji kepada-MU. Aku bersaksi bahawa tiada Tuhan selain Engkau. Aku mohon keampunan-MU dan aku bertaubat kepada-MU.

Selamat tahun baru 1434H.
Hijrahlah.

Wassalam.

Friday, October 12, 2012

If I Had My Child to Raise Over Again

Assalamualaikum,

I was random-reading Ustaz Hasrizal's "Aku Terima Nikahnya" (the 3-books compilation) last night when I stumbled upon below poem.

If I Had My Child to Raise Over Again
by Diana Loomans

If I had my child to raise over again,
I'd finger paint more, and point the finger less.
I'd do less correcting, and more connecting.
I'd take my eyes off my watch, and watch with my eyes.
I would care to know less, and know to care more.
I'd take more hikes and fly more kites.
I'd stop playing serious, and seriously play.
I'd run through more fields, and gaze at more stars.
I'd do more hugging, and less tugging.
I would be firm less often, and affirm much more.
I'd build self-esteem first, and the house later.
I'd teach less about the love of power,
And more about the power of love.
It matters not whether my child is big or small,
From this day forth, I'll cherish it all.

Is it me; or parenting and the desire to be a good child makes you emotional?

I mean, the child - they will grow up. And it feels like we only have one chance in parenting - we must do it correctly the first time. Parenting is a serious business; I know that even when I was 17. But the nature of parenting should not be an excuse or worst, the main reason for the absence of love and compassion in the relationship. Parents always mean well; but the dos, don'ts, never, shoulds and shouldn'ts list must not turn parenting into some human training camp. I am talking about the lists because I know that is the method I'd use to raise my children.

But I come to realized that rules and obedience are not the main point in parenting. I can relate this to my relationship with Hakimi. Yes I can make him to obey my rules; I can force him to obey my rules. But if I keep treating him like that, I know I will lose him once he is a teenager. When the time comes, the poem suits me very well. Through time, I learn that good intention must be delivered with good methods. Per Ustaz Hasrizal, our children might fails to follow our teaching (words), but they never fails to copy our acts. If you treat children sternly, you get stern children.

Hakimi... His presence makes me a better person who wants to be a good parent.

I still need to learn a lot more about parenting... Semoga Allah berkati dan permudahkan perjalanan mencari ilmu tersebut dengan sumber yang bagus dan ilmu yang diredhai-Nya. Amiin Ya Allah.

Note: If you're getting married; already married; planning to have children; or simply a human being who wants to improve your quality as a parent or a child, you should consider reading "Aku Terima Nikahnya".

Wassalam.

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

Just Saying 2-October-2012

 
Credit: http://welovestyles.com/struggle-quotes/
Bila berasa lemah kita mencari kekuatan.
It is by feeling vulnerable that we find ways to be stronger.
Jadi bertahanlah!
So hold on!

Me,
Bottom of the Ocean,
October 2, 2012.

Monday, September 24, 2012

Pretty?


Photo: Bu-yong from Rooftop Prince
I don't know which is worst - believing you are not pretty or to have nobody telling you that you are pretty.

Fly FM Morning Rock Crew fixed a guy's problem last Friday morning - his girlfriend is addicted to KPop and obsessed with plastic surgery. I was wondering if she is really not pretty when Hafiz pokes her background bubble. She sobbed to the question before finally admitting that she had rough childhood. There was not much love and no one ever told her that she is pretty. So she is not necessarily lack in anything.

I grew up believing I am fat and not pretty - I said [shout] to my radio. My cousins planted that idea in my mind. In my past, I wore L size garments; because that is the size I see myself through other people's eyes (There was one time when I chose a XXL t-shirt for a jamboree event). I actually believed that until early 20s. Then I started to gain my consciousness and confident bit by bit. I am not Miss Universe-ly pretty, but I am just as fair as any girl could be. I am not model slim, but I am okay. There is nothing wrong with myself. I deserve a slap for letting other people messing up with my mind.

It is not fair for me to make it sound that simple. It is not. I am among the lucky ones who made it through this. It is not a fall to endure. It is more of a climb; a process of building something. Long or short step; fast or slow pace; you must take the first step and keep going on with your eyes on the peak. You need to hold on to yourself and pick up the pieces. I took 20 over years to do that and I am still climbing and building.

Pretty or not pretty, it is up to me.
The world can crowned you the prettiest of all, but if you did not believe that you are pretty, it would mean nothing. You will always have the dissatisfaction in you. In search of perfection, you will find more flaws. But if you can embrace the flaw and be content of what you have and who you are, it is possible to live a perfect life. Somebody said that beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder and you're what you eat - so be in the loving eyes; feed yourselves with good food; and feed your soul with good input.

I always told my cousins that you need to believe that you're pretty, and then people will see you from your eyes. It is inside-out! Look into the mirror and tell yourself that you are just perfect and nothing less than that.

We can't help on the genetic part, but we can do so many by creating a more loving and compassionate environment. Tell a child that they are pretty, compliment them for being a good person, encourage them to see themselves positively, and help them to develop good self-esteem. Always try to find something good in other people, even the smallest criteria - and tell them that.

Let us cherish ourselves and each person around us -- for exactly who they are.

Betrayal Cuts Deep


Photo from: http://i304.photobucket.com/albums/nn196/jannalynn23/fingerprick.jpg

Betrayal cuts deep; it leaves ugly scar that would never fade.
Be-tra-yal: even the sound of it feels like paper cut.

When the shoes were put on to my feet, I don't know how to walk it. I was petrified. The runaway vanished before my eyes. The shoes sank me deep into the darkness. I am the kind who has the what-I-will-do-if-it-happen-to-me list. Funny when it bumped into me, it knocks me down so hard to the ground; I can't stand up to fight back. I remain on the ground throughout the stages of grief.

I finally tossed the shoes into the trash, but it is still there.
The numbness, the pain, the hatred, I will always have the ugly scar.

That is my story when I was betrayed by my partner in commitment.
So when I received the grieving news from someone close to me, that she is betrayed by her husband, it hits my yet-to-heal ugly scar.
I would not dare to put myself in her shoes, because it would be more painful. I lost everything back then when a guy betrayed me; she's betrayed by her husband, her everything.

This post is not to blame any individual. I stand on the same side even if a girl betrayed a guy. I would be on the same side even if the betrayer betrayed! It is not gender thing-y, it is not something anybody deserved.
What I want to say is, it could happen to anyone of us. But we must always choose to avoid doing so. Do not break a heart. You never know how severe it can be. You never know the amount of pain you have inflicted on a person. You never know...

Trust is built. When you knocks and destroy it, what is left is the remaining of it. Apologies did not undo anything. But forgiveness heals.
And forgiveness is earned.

Wednesday, September 19, 2012

Cinta Kami Kepada Muhammad SAW Lebih Marak


Kredit foto: ILoveAllaah.com

Assalamualaikum,

Api benci kamu marak.

Setiap kewujudan kami ingin sekali membalasnya.
Dengan darah dan dengan nyawa.

Tapi api cinta kami kepada Baginda Rasulullah lebih membakar.
Tapi keinginan Rasul kami andai Baginda masih di sisi kami lebih utama.
Tapi keinginan kami mencontohi akhlak Rasul yang kami rindui ketika berhadapan dengan manusia seperti kamu lebih mendalam.

Api cinta kami kepada Baginda Rasulullah Muhammad bin Abdullah lebih membakar.
Itulah yang kamu tidak fahami dan itulah yang kamu geruni.

Islam tidak mengajar kami untuk membenci, menghina dan menghasut.
Tapi Islam melalui Rasul yang kami cintai mengajar kami untuk membalas kejahatan dengan kebaikan.
Dan Islam melalui Rasul yang kami cintai mengajar kami erti dan nilai; meletakkan iman dalam kemarahan dan perjuangan.

Justeru diam kami bukan kemenangan bagi kamu.
Api yang kamu percikkan hanyalah kesusahan untuk kamu dihari kemudian.
Api yang kamu percikkan sekadar katalis kepada api perjuangan yang tidak pernah padam.

Amarah kami; adalah selemah-lemah iman.
Amarah kami; kami gandakan lagi kecintaan.
Amarah kami; kami gandakan lagi kerinduan.
Amarah kami; kami panjatkan aduan kepada Tuhan Yang Satu.
Kerana balasan yang sesuai untuk kamu hanyalah KeadilanNya.

Wassalam.

Thursday, August 16, 2012

Perutusan Aidilfitri 1433H

Assalamualaikum,

Semakin menghampiri hari graduasi Madrasah Ramadhan. Terasa pendek sungguh Ramadhan kali ini - petanda semakin hampir dengan destinasi yang pasti. Ramadhan kali ini benar-benar mendidik, Alhamdulillah. Semoga didikan yang diterima kekal berbekas di hati umpama besi yang ditempa, Amiin Ya Allah. Pendidikan Ramadhan ini umpama ibadah Haji juga, dilihat selepas berlalu musimnya - terdapatkah kelangsungan atau umpama hujan yang mengikut angin.

Ada hamba Allah yang pulang dari Haji tetapi hatinya tidak pernah kembali.
Ada hamba Allah yang pergi Haji tapi hatinya tidak pernah pergi.

Semoga hati kita semua hadir kepada Ramadhan yang 30 hari tetapi semangat Ramadhan itu tinggal menetap di dalam hati dan tidak pernah pergi. Amiin Ya Khaliq, kabulkanlah permintaan yang satu ini.

Dikesempatan ruang yang sempit ini, diucapkan selamat menyambut Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Mohon maafkan salah silap dalam menulis dan mengutara pandangan.
Ingatlah Allah di hari kemenangan.
Minal Aidin Wal Faizin - Semoga Allah menjadikan kita daripada golongan orang-orang yang kembali kepadaNya dan orang-orang yang beroleh kemenangan.
Amiin Ya Rahman.

“Apakah hasil yang kita harapkan selepas berpuasa di bulan Ramadan? Apakah bentuk manusia yang kita akan jadi selepas keluar dari ‘kem latihan’ Ramadan ini?”
- Pahrol Mohamad Juoi, Menjangkau Pasca Ramadhan

Wassalam.


Friday, August 10, 2012

10 Yang Terakhir


Assalamualaikum,

Dah tiba di 10 hari terakhir Ramadhan 1433H.
Sob sob!

Bukanlah tidak gembira nak menyambut Hari Raya, tapi hati berat nak melepaskan Ramadhan. Teringat kata-kata arwah Tok Wan melihatkan kami berjimba riang saat menyambut Ramadhan yang kian berakhir. Kata beliau, patutnya kita berasa berat hati sebab bulan yang baik, yang penuh rahmat, penuh keampunan dan pelepasan dari api neraka bakal berakhir. Ada ulama yang menangis di 10 hari terakhir Ramadhan sebab tak sanggup nak berpisah dan risau kalau-kalau tak bertemu dengan Ramadhan seterusnya.

I was still young at that time, tapi kata-kata arwah memang berkesan di hati. Pada mulanya sekadar cover line sebab tak mahu kena leter, but as I grew up and understand more what he meant, the feeling slowly building in me.

Marilah sama-sama memperbanyakkan lagi amal di penghujung Ramadhan ini. Kalau main bolasepak, dah dikira sebagai masa kecederaan. This is your chance; win or lose? Ada peluang untuk 'golden goal' juga. Tak mahukah?

Ya Qahhar Ya Jabbar Ya Mujib
Lapangkan masa kami dan berikanlah kesihatan untuk beribadat
Ya Majid Ya Khaliq Ya Latif
Mohon dipermudahkan kami untuk beramal dengan hati yang ikhlas dan tenang di penghujung Ramadhan ini.
Ya Rahman Ya Rahim Ya Malik
Mohon dimarakkan lagi api tekad dalam hati kami dalam merebut kebaikan yang Kau telah janjikan.
Amiin Ya Rabb.


 Wassalam.


Friday, July 20, 2012

Cheap War

Insulting other people’s faith, religion, culture, race, and everything in your way will never make you any better. It makes you as bad as your insult.

The moment you insult others thinking that you have the right to do so because you are better than them, you are actually downgrading yourself even lower than your insult.

For me, this type of psychological war is cheap.
You are getting nowhere.
The ability to irate people is not recognized as skill.
It is attitude problem.

These kinds of people, they feed themselves with the response they get. They more irritating you are, the more excited they become. Before you know it, they get new things on you.

Do not satisfy them by responding unwisely.
Do not let them have you.
Most importantly, do not be a monster to defeat another monster.
It is not worth it.


Thursday, July 19, 2012

Ramadhan, Bertemu Kembali

Assalamualaikum,

"Marhaban Ya Ramadhan", begitu hati mahu memulakan bicara. Tapi tiba-tiba hati terdetik, yakinkah bertemu dengan Ramadhan kali ini? Kemungkinannya esok atau lusa, tapi ajal pasti tiba tanpa dapat kita duga...

Ya Allah,
Dalam syukurku untuk usia yang Kau sisakan di penghujung Syaaban ini, kumohon kesempatan untuk bertemu dengan RamadhanMu.
Semoga terlerai kerinduan ini.
Ya Allah,
Dalam syukurku untuk usia yang Kau sisakan untuk bertemu kembali dengan Ramadhan kali ini, kumohon kesihatan yang baik dan kemudahan untuk beribadah sebaik-baiknya...
Semoga dapat kurebut rahmatMu, keampunanMu dan pembebasan daripada nerakaMu.

Amiin, Ya Allah.

Alhamdulillah.

Selamat kembali wahai Ramadhan bulan kemuliaan.
Selamat menjalani ibadah puasa kepada semua Muslimin dan Muslimat.

Wassalam.


Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Breaking Off Flower

Breaking Off Flowers
Written by Lee Kyu Bo, a famous poet during Goryeo Dynasty who lived from 1169 to 1241
from Rooftop Prince Ep. 1
Credit to: Drama Haven

"The peony blossoms hold dew, like grains of pearl
The beautiful lady breaks off and picks the blossom, and passes before a window
Holding onto a smile, she asks her husband
Is the flower prettier or is my countenance prettier
The husband teases her on purpose, saying
For prettiness, I would say, the flower and its stem would win
The beautiful lady became jealous at the winning of flower
Stepping and destroying the flower with its stem, saying
If the flower is prettier than concubine
Tonight, sleep together with the flower"

* I particularly love Bu-yong. And this poem reading scene is one of my favourite ^______^ *


Friday, July 13, 2012

Kembali dan Kesedihan

Assalamualaikum,

Kematian bawa melihat Allah yang Maha Hidup.
Kehilangan bawa melihat Allah Yang Maha Ada.
Kesedihan ini buat penghapus cinta kepada dunia...

Kudrat dan upaya kita sekadar kudrat segumpal tanah.
Memang tidak terdaya dan tidak tercarikan kekuatan itu.
Allahlah Yang Maha Membantu. Dialah Yang Maha Memberi.
Allah akan beri kekuatan itu kepada kita.

Kita tidak pernah bersendirian dalam berhadapan dengan musibah.
Kita ada Allah Yang Maha Penyayang.

* Another friend lost her father this evening. Daripada Allah kita datang, kepadaNya kita semua kembali. Losing a parent, losing someone, is hard. Kekuatan daripada Allah sahaja yang mampu membantu kita mengharunginya. Semoga Allah mengampunkan dosa kedua ibu bapa kita sama ada mereka masih hidup ataupun telah meninggal dunia. Amiin Ya Latif. *

Wassalam.

Sumbangnya Dejavu Di Kinabalu

Assalamualaikum,

"Bongok"

Terasanya belum pernah lagi perkata di atas dijadikan sebahagian daripada status FB. But I just could not help myself from using that term when this drama goes from cheap (it's a Malay version of Summer Scent, duh!) straight into the drain.

It bothers me when they make it look so original like "idea asal by bla bla bla" when it clearly a remake. Fine. We have seen remakes of great drama and movies. I could live with that and not that I'm gonna stick to watching it anyway. [Being able to write about it does not make me a 'fan'. How can you ignore when you are sitting with a group of people watching it?]

Yang menjadikan drama ini bongok ialah bila banyak sangat adegan-adegan yang clearly against our culture, not to mention, Islam. To name some - Inara in Ammar's bedroom hanging her pictures, Ammar and Nadira spending their night together in the middle of a bonfire(?), Nadira and Ammar alone in a room (where Nadira supposed to decorate), Nadira comforting Ammar in his house (again, alone) - and up to yesterday's episode where a father could just walk away leaving his daughter bertepuk tampar with a guy not yet a her husband. Itu belum sebut tentang clubbing scene and all. Top to toe, it is a disgrace.

It is heart crushing when a group of Muslims could produce such unhealthy drama.
So what are you trying to voice out people...? That khalwat is okay? That love is everything? That it is that okay untuk berdua-duaan dengan yang bukan mahram as long as you know what you're doing and you know your limit? That this is the acceptable upbringing for the new century? That it is no longer matter what Allah has said?!

I am not accusing anyone for anything. My mind wonders along that trail; what are you trying to achieve from your 'effort'.

And when I Google it, I am shock that viewers actually love the show. My apology that I need to use the word disgusting.

Gosh.

Mencurahkan perasaan di blog ini sekadar melontarkan seketul batu yang kecil ke lautan. What I said here will not make big impact. I don't have the voice or the influence. I keep hoping somebody with louder voice and higher stance would step up and say something about this drama.

Bila Allah beri bakat dan kedudukan, momentum and magnitude, seharusnya digunakan untuk kebaikan. Untuk berdakwah dengan mengajak ke jalan menuju redhaNya. I believe that.

I am no one, but at least I make my stand.
For me, ia bukan setakat sumbang, tetapi sundal.

To those who love the drama, I am sorry if I offended your feeling by sharing mine. But I won't take back or change my thought.

To those who are with me, let us pray.
Panjatkan doa semoga Allah mudahkan jalan menujuNya, cerahkan mata hati yang kabur, kekalkan dalam hidayahNya dan mohon kesejahteraan.

Wassalam.

Thursday, July 12, 2012

Common Gynaecological Problems in Women - A Health Talk

I attended a health talk on Common Gynaecological Problems in Women by Dr. Narinder Singh from Island Hospital, Penang in conjuction of Agilent Health Week. I must say, he is one cute ObGyn! He even models a uterus himself to better illustrate what's going on inside there in certain health condition. Haha. You could only imagine how a guy did that up to Victoria Secret level and not cheap porn.

To wrap up today's session:

1) Know your body, girls. If something goes wrong or does not look or feel normal, go to your doctor. Don't just talk to your girlfriends.

2) To whom it may concern; never miss your pap smear.

3) Don't frighten yourselves from getting information about your health condition. Be curious, be cautious. We have advanced health technology; you just need to reach for the help.

4) Skip buying more shoes, handbags or garments you don't really need and spend the extra money on HPV vaccination - per the doctor. Didn't I tell you he is a cute ObGyn? ;)

Writing about this in my blog reminds me to my grandmother. She is traditional and these are taboo to her. I remember when 3R started to poke the taboo bubble, talking about pads, menstrual and all - she was furious. She practically called us - my aunties and me - shameless for talking about that like it is nothing.

I could not blame her. She was raise with that kind of dignity. Women on her era keep this stuff a very secret secret and having it known to the men would literally mean a disgrace to them. And men that time should be very oblivious to the women thingy.

And women nowadays are too loud and open, even for me.

I am traditional, though not to that extent. But I don't discuss about me or other women with guys. Especially when it is obvious the guy is nowhere near the intellectual path. I consider that hit (read: dirty jokes/talk) as an insult. But if it is a healthy discussion, fine.

I don't see any value discussing this matter with anybody who obviously doesn’t care much, even to respect you in a way. And yes, I don't approve girlfriend-sharing and boyfriend-caring over the information. Go share and care about something else! Get married if you are that curious about your body. I once knew a guy who always asks and I seriously think that is so impolite.

So my darling girlfriends, take good care of your health <3

Wednesday, July 11, 2012

A Crush Heart Break

Crush heartbreak is still a heartbreak. It still hurts. Well, not that hurt hurt. I usually laugh through it and make a 48 pt bold note not to steal the tiniest glance at the target, ever again. Usually life goes on as per normal and you’ll get over it. By ‘usually’, does not mean it happen that much. But you got my point, right?

Ugh.

Saying it out loud, me.

Friday, July 6, 2012

Pejuang Pena

Assalamualaikum,

Hari ini Hilal Asyraf menukilkan bacaan yang menyentuh hati saya. Karya beliau yang terakhir kali sebagai seorang bujang - esok beliau akan bernikah. Yang menyentuh hati bukan kisah cinta beliau. Tetapi kisah bagaimana LangitIlahi dilahirkan untuk perkenalan para pembaca sekelian. Juga bagaimana kelahiran LangitIlahi itu sendiri 'melahirkan' seorang Hilal Asyraf.

"Semua itu membentuk kehidupan saya.
Kehidupan yang sukar menjadi lebih ringan.
Kehidupan yang sepi menjadi lebih terisi.
Dan Allah SWT izin, kehidupan saya sendiri mula berubah."

"Allah SWT memberikan saya potensi, maka saya bercita-cita untuk tidak membazirkannya."

[ Boleh baca Umum: Catatan Terakhir Sebagai Bujang Di LangitIlahi.Com dengan lebih lanjut ]

[Baca juga Jawapan Hilal Asyraf kepada Tun Dr Mahathir Mohamad sebagai respons kepada persoalan berkenaan Hukum Hudud oleh Tun Dr. Mahathir Mohamad yang kemudiannya dijawab menerusi Jawapan Kepada Hilal.

- Membacanya mengingatkan saya kepada pesanan Yusuf Estes:
Before we begin to provide answers, here are some important points to keep in mind:
1. As Muslims we cannot lie about anything, especially about our religion
2. We have original recorded sources of our religion: The Quran and Teachings of Muhammad. This is a very unique part of Islam, not available in any other ancient religions.
3. Sometimes "questions" contain misinformation. We must qualify what it is that someone is saying against what they are implying.
4. If you find the answer to your question makes you say, "I didn't know that" or "This is good" are you ready to worship your God and your Lord without and partners? This what Islam is really all about. The most important subject is the worship of Almighty God, without any partners or associates or "gods" besides Almighty God]


Dalam hati saya sungguh-sungguh berdoa semoga Allah izinkan lebih ramai lagi penulis Muslim dengan citarasa dan arah tuju seperti Hilal Asyraf dan beberapa lagi penulis dakwah selebriti atau bukan selebriti.

Mungkin ada yang berpendapat "cukup-cukuplah penulis dakwah". Tidak. Tidak ada limit kecukupan dalam usaha dakwah.

Penulis seperti merekalah yang wajar diangkat.
Penulis seperti merekalah yang wajar untuk dibanggakan.
Penulis seperti merekalah yang menaikkan martabat pejuang pena.

Semoga suatu hari nanti saya juga mampu untuk lebih menyumbang ke jalan dakwah melalui penulisan...
Amiin Ya Khaliq.

Ya Allah, tetapkan kami dijalan menujuMU.
Amiin Ya Latif.

P.S: Alang-alang ramai follower, alang-alang ada yang mendengar, sampaikanlah CintaNYA dan legasi cinta Muhammad.

Baraka Allahu Lakuma wa Baraka alikuma, Wa jamaah baina kuma fee khair untuk Hilal Asyraf dan isteri.

Wassalam.

Thursday, July 5, 2012

Forza Azzurri -- Congrats & Thank You


Whoa.
What a game!

Almost drop my jaw for the first goal.
Bit my fingers for the second goal.
Lost my words when Thiago Motta left the game.
Experienced vertigo for the third goal.
Lie down for the fourth.

Full time:
Italy 0 - 4 Spain ( Silva 14' | Jordi Alba 41' | Torres 84' | Juan Mata 88' )

Football heart break is genuine heart break.
Especially when two sweethearts fight against each other.
Can't you two just be in one team?! (sincerely me, being silly~)


It is heart crushing to see Buffon leading the squad for their silver medallion.
It is epic to see Casillas with the trophy.
It would be more epic to see Buffon with the trophy ^_____^ v

Winning EUFA EURO 2012 is important for both Italy and Spain. Italy to wins after 44 years and Spain to wins their third European title consequently. My darling Azzurri has given their best; but best men win (better men win?). La Roja definitely deserve the title. We have seen how determination being redefined by Spain in World Cup 2010. They did it again last night, proving they are the best football team in the world.

Congratulations to Spain for the European title hat trick.
Congratulations and big thank you to Italy for being in the final.

Though they were defeated (thrashed 0-4 some media said), I believe the Azzurri has shown great performance. They take risk and played the game differently from their usual defensive religion. There is hope for better Azzurri - another reason for fans to keep on supporting them. Furthermore, for once the Azzurri gives impression that they could win the title and make the neutrals to consider choosing them over Spain.

It is just not their time, yet.
And yes, still a pround Azzurri fan! *wink*


[The ever inspiring] Gianluigi Buffon, Italy captain:
"It's ended badly because we faced a great team who deserved to win. Sometimes in life you need to be able to accept defeat and compliment opponents who were better. They have a lot of players who are accustomed to playing certain types of games, important games like the final of a European Championship. I think at the start we paid for this because we were not the same Italy as we have been. We have nothing to complain about. Spain were the better team and we congratulate them."

"It hurts this way. The game was already over after the first half. With Italy reduced to ten men after 61 minutes, the Spanish dominated the game and won a historical third trophy in a row." Gazzetta dello Sport, Italy

"Italy, don't cry. The Azzurri were tired and reduced to ten men for almost half an hour, and they go home with a 4-0 loss that cannot make us forget a thrilling tournament. [Giorgio] Chiellini and Thiago Motta's injuries were decisive." Tuttosport, Italy
(Source: Europe's papers shower Spain with praise)