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Dusk

Assalamualaikum,
It is 2:53 AM, 29 December 2012. I don't plan to stay up this late; I am supposed to sleep as soon as I am done setting up the laptop. That was before I started working on the recently taken photographs - Dani Mikhael and some photos near Jerejak Island.
My photography activity has slowed down significantly this year. It is not because I was not inspired or don't have time for it. I guess somehow the feeling of loneliness manage to creep it way... It is not fun anymore thinking that I would be 'enjoying' this photography activity alone.
I guess photography makes me miss my friends even more. Pictures without them are emptiness. Sigh.
Okay, this entry is not supposed to be sad. Because as much as I am lonely, how could I not be happy when my friends are in great condition? I am happy :)
So this picture is one of the pictures I took near Jerejak Island. To be specific, it was taken from Seri Pantai Ikan Bakar restaurant, at dusk, while waiting for our dinner.…

Loud and Busy

Assalamualaikum,
This is just the time of the year where I would trade my soul for some additional minutes to my 24 hours. Time flies like arrow and fruit flies [still] like banana. And I am filling my brain with as much air as I can in one big gulp - and start working.
So I believe all entry will have to wait. Oh I have so many half-way entries!
It's time for loud and elegance music. Why loud - so that my mind would be too scared to wander around and stays in focus. Why elegance - merely a drop of style. Ha. Maybe CN Blue, Vivaldi and The Piano Guys.
Off. For now. Wassalam.

Gaza: Peluang ke Syurga

Assalamualaikum,
Jumaat pertama tahun ini. Namun hati sayu dan sedih dengan perkhabaran derita di Gaza. Benarlah, serangan ke atas Gaza pada awal Muharram adalah satu penghinaan ke atas umat Islam - Muharram adalah salah satu bulan suci di mana peperangan adalah diharamkan.
Perlukah dan dapatkah kata-kata menggambarkan penghinaan dan penganiayaan besar tersebut?
Terdetik di hati pada pagi Jumaat yang mulia ini: "Ya, teruskanlah kehinaan kamu itu. Teruskanlah jadikan bumi Gaza itu lorong-lorong dan platform ke syurga. Teruskanlah jadikan bumi Gaza itu tempat bagi hamba yang sabar dan redha dengan ujian Allah. Teruskanlah buka peluang kepada para pejuang Islam untuk menemui Maha Pencipta dalam keadaan syahid."
Setiap kali menatap gambar-gambar jenazah dari Gaza, tiada lagi air mata, hanya doa dan redha mereka kembali kepada Allah: "Seorang lagi ahli syurga, InshaAllah."

Teruskanlah meramaikan ahli syurga!
Di dalam kelemahan, kupanjatkan doa memohon sejahtera kepada saudara…

Azam 1434H

Assalamualaikum,
29 Zulhijjah 1433H. Hari terakhir untuk tahun ini.
Refleksi
"Hablumminallah Wa Hablumminannas". Begitu azam aku menjelang 1433H yang lalu. Aku berazam untuk memperbaiki hubungan dengan Allah dan dengan manusia. Poin penting: kerendahan hati tinggi nilainya, sabar itu mahal harganya dan kembali kepada fitrah sebagai seorang hamba yang bertuhankan Allah Yang Maha Tinggi itulah kuncinya. Tiada lagi jalan lain, melainkan Jalan Yang Satu. Bukan mudah menggabungkan ketiga-tiganya. Terasa dunia terlepas dari genggaman... Tapi itulah poinnya: belajar melepaskan dunia (bukanlah sampai tidak ambil kisah langsung!) dan berikan ruang dalam jiwa dengan kemahuan terhadap akhirat. Yang mendapat akhirat, pasti mendapat dunia. InshaAllah. Soalan "sudah tercapaikah?". Jawapannya, masih memperbaiki hari demi hari.
Azam 1434H
Pertamanya, perlu dilanjutkan operasi "Hablumminallah Wa Hablumminannas" ke tahun seterusnya. Terasanya masih belum cukup rasa.
"Bila kamu…

If I Had My Child to Raise Over Again

Assalamualaikum,
I was random-reading Ustaz Hasrizal's "Aku Terima Nikahnya" (the 3-books compilation) last night when I stumbled upon below poem.
If I Had My Child to Raise Over Again by Diana Loomans
If I had my child to raise over again, I'd finger paint more, and point the finger less. I'd do less correcting, and more connecting. I'd take my eyes off my watch, and watch with my eyes. I would care to know less, and know to care more. I'd take more hikes and fly more kites. I'd stop playing serious, and seriously play. I'd run through more fields, and gaze at more stars. I'd do more hugging, and less tugging. I would be firm less often, and affirm much more. I'd build self-esteem first, and the house later. I'd teach less about the love of power, And more about the power of love. It matters not whether my child is big or small, From this day forth, I'll cherish it all.
Is it me; or parenting and the desire to be a good child makes you emotional?
I m…

Just Saying 2-October-2012

 
Bila berasa lemah kita mencari kekuatan.
It is by feeling vulnerable that we find ways to be stronger. Jadi bertahanlah! So hold on!
Me, Bottom of the Ocean, October 2, 2012.

Pretty?


I don't know which is worst - believing you are not pretty or to have nobody telling you that you are pretty.

Fly FM Morning Rock Crew fixed a guy's problem last Friday morning - his girlfriend is addicted to KPop and obsessed with plastic surgery. I was wondering if she is really not pretty when Hafiz pokes her background bubble. She sobbed to the question before finally admitting that she had rough childhood. There was not much love and no one ever told her that she is pretty. So she is not necessarily lack in anything.
I grew up believing I am fat and not pretty - I said [shout] to my radio. My cousins planted that idea in my mind. In my past, I wore L size garments; because that is the size I see myself through other people's eyes (There was one time when I chose a XXL t-shirt for a jamboree event). I actually believed that until early 20s. Then I started to gain my consciousness and confident bit by bit. I am not Miss Universe-ly pretty, but I am just as fair as any …

Betrayal Cuts Deep

  Betrayal cuts deep; it leaves ugly scar that would never fade. Be-tra-yal: even the sound of it feels like paper cut.
When the shoes were put on to my feet, I don't know how to walk it. I was petrified. The runaway vanished before my eyes. The shoes sank me deep into the darkness. I am the kind who has the what-I-will-do-if-it-happen-to-me list. Funny when it bumped into me, it knocks me down so hard to the ground; I can't stand up to fight back. I remain on the ground throughout the stages of grief.
I finally tossed the shoes into the trash, but it is still there. The numbness, the pain, the hatred, I will always have the ugly scar.
That is my story when I was betrayed by my partner in commitment. So when I received the grieving news from someone close to me, that she is betrayed by her husband, it hits my yet-to-heal ugly scar. I would not dare to put myself in her shoes, because it would be more painful. I lost everything back then when a guy betrayed me; she's betraye…

Cinta Kami Kepada Muhammad SAW Lebih Marak



Assalamualaikum,
Api benci kamu marak.
Setiap kewujudan kami ingin sekali membalasnya. Dengan darah dan dengan nyawa.
Tapi api cinta kami kepada Baginda Rasulullah lebih membakar. Tapi keinginan Rasul kami andai Baginda masih di sisi kami lebih utama. Tapi keinginan kami mencontohi akhlak Rasul yang kami rindui ketika berhadapan dengan manusia seperti kamu lebih mendalam.
Api cinta kami kepada Baginda Rasulullah Muhammad bin Abdullah lebih membakar. Itulah yang kamu tidak fahami dan itulah yang kamu geruni.
Islam tidak mengajar kami untuk membenci, menghina dan menghasut. Tapi Islam melalui Rasul yang kami cintai mengajar kami untuk membalas kejahatan dengan kebaikan. Dan Islam melalui Rasul yang kami cintai mengajar kami erti dan nilai; meletakkan iman dalam kemarahan dan perjuangan.
Justeru diam kami bukan kemenangan bagi kamu. Api yang kamu percikkan hanyalah kesusahan untuk kamu dihari kemudian. Api yang kamu percikkan sekadar katalis kepada api perjuangan yang tidak pernah padam.
Amarah k…

Perutusan Aidilfitri 1433H

Assalamualaikum,
Semakin menghampiri hari graduasi Madrasah Ramadhan. Terasa pendek sungguh Ramadhan kali ini - petanda semakin hampir dengan destinasi yang pasti. Ramadhan kali ini benar-benar mendidik, Alhamdulillah. Semoga didikan yang diterima kekal berbekas di hati umpama besi yang ditempa, Amiin Ya Allah. Pendidikan Ramadhan ini umpama ibadah Haji juga, dilihat selepas berlalu musimnya - terdapatkah kelangsungan atau umpama hujan yang mengikut angin.
Ada hamba Allah yang pulang dari Haji tetapi hatinya tidak pernah kembali. Ada hamba Allah yang pergi Haji tapi hatinya tidak pernah pergi.
Semoga hati kita semua hadir kepada Ramadhan yang 30 hari tetapi semangat Ramadhan itu tinggal menetap di dalam hati dan tidak pernah pergi. Amiin Ya Khaliq, kabulkanlah permintaan yang satu ini.
Dikesempatan ruang yang sempit ini, diucapkan selamat menyambut Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Mohon maafkan salah silap dalam menulis dan mengutara pandangan. Ingatlah Allah di hari kemenangan. Minal Aidin Wal Faizin …

10 Yang Terakhir

Assalamualaikum,
Dah tiba di 10 hari terakhir Ramadhan 1433H. Sob sob!
Bukanlah tidak gembira nak menyambut Hari Raya, tapi hati berat nak melepaskan Ramadhan. Teringat kata-kata arwah Tok Wan melihatkan kami berjimba riang saat menyambut Ramadhan yang kian berakhir. Kata beliau, patutnya kita berasa berat hati sebab bulan yang baik, yang penuh rahmat, penuh keampunan dan pelepasan dari api neraka bakal berakhir. Ada ulama yang menangis di 10 hari terakhir Ramadhan sebab tak sanggup nak berpisah dan risau kalau-kalau tak bertemu dengan Ramadhan seterusnya.
I was still young at that time, tapi kata-kata arwah memang berkesan di hati. Pada mulanya sekadar cover line sebab tak mahu kena leter, but as I grew up and understand more what he meant, the feeling slowly building in me.
Marilah sama-sama memperbanyakkan lagi amal di penghujung Ramadhan ini. Kalau main bolasepak, dah dikira sebagai masa kecederaan. This is your chance; win or lose? Ada peluang untuk 'golden goal' juga. Tak mah…

Cheap War

Insulting other people’s faith, religion, culture, race, and everything in your way will never make you any better. It makes you as bad as your insult.
The moment you insult others thinking that you have the right to do so because you are better than them, you are actually downgrading yourself even lower than your insult.
For me, this type of psychological war is cheap. You are getting nowhere. The ability to irate people is not recognized as skill. It is attitude problem.
These kinds of people, they feed themselves with the response they get. They more irritating you are, the more excited they become. Before you know it, they get new things on you.
Do not satisfy them by responding unwisely. Do not let them have you. Most importantly, do not be a monster to defeat another monster. It is not worth it.

Ramadhan, Bertemu Kembali

Assalamualaikum,
"Marhaban Ya Ramadhan", begitu hati mahu memulakan bicara. Tapi tiba-tiba hati terdetik, yakinkah bertemu dengan Ramadhan kali ini? Kemungkinannya esok atau lusa, tapi ajal pasti tiba tanpa dapat kita duga...
Ya Allah, Dalam syukurku untuk usia yang Kau sisakan di penghujung Syaaban ini, kumohon kesempatan untuk bertemu dengan RamadhanMu. Semoga terlerai kerinduan ini. Ya Allah, Dalam syukurku untuk usia yang Kau sisakan untuk bertemu kembali dengan Ramadhan kali ini, kumohon kesihatan yang baik dan kemudahan untuk beribadah sebaik-baiknya... Semoga dapat kurebut rahmatMu, keampunanMu dan pembebasan daripada nerakaMu.
Amiin, Ya Allah.
Alhamdulillah.
Selamat kembali wahai Ramadhan bulan kemuliaan. Selamat menjalani ibadah puasa kepada semua Muslimin dan Muslimat.
Wassalam.

Breaking Off Flower

Breaking Off Flowers
Written by Lee Kyu Bo, a famous poet during Goryeo Dynasty who lived from 1169 to 1241 from Rooftop Prince Ep. 1 Credit to: Drama Haven
"The peony blossoms hold dew, like grains of pearl The beautiful lady breaks off and picks the blossom, and passes before a window Holding onto a smile, she asks her husband Is the flower prettier or is my countenance prettier The husband teases her on purpose, saying For prettiness, I would say, the flower and its stem would win The beautiful lady became jealous at the winning of flower Stepping and destroying the flower with its stem, saying If the flower is prettier than concubine Tonight, sleep together with the flower"
* I particularly love Bu-yong. And this poem reading scene is one of my favourite ^______^ *

Kembali dan Kesedihan

Assalamualaikum,
Kematian bawa melihat Allah yang Maha Hidup. Kehilangan bawa melihat Allah Yang Maha Ada. Kesedihan ini buat penghapus cinta kepada dunia...
Kudrat dan upaya kita sekadar kudrat segumpal tanah. Memang tidak terdaya dan tidak tercarikan kekuatan itu. Allahlah Yang Maha Membantu. Dialah Yang Maha Memberi. Allah akan beri kekuatan itu kepada kita.
Kita tidak pernah bersendirian dalam berhadapan dengan musibah. Kita ada Allah Yang Maha Penyayang.
* Another friend lost her father this evening. Daripada Allah kita datang, kepadaNya kita semua kembali. Losing a parent, losing someone, is hard. Kekuatan daripada Allah sahaja yang mampu membantu kita mengharunginya. Semoga Allah mengampunkan dosa kedua ibu bapa kita sama ada mereka masih hidup ataupun telah meninggal dunia. Amiin Ya Latif. *
Wassalam.

Sumbangnya Dejavu Di Kinabalu

Assalamualaikum,
"Bongok"
Terasanya belum pernah lagi perkata di atas dijadikan sebahagian daripada status FB. But I just could not help myself from using that term when this drama goes from cheap (it's a Malay version of Summer Scent, duh!) straight into the drain.
It bothers me when they make it look so original like "idea asal by bla bla bla" when it clearly a remake. Fine. We have seen remakes of great drama and movies. I could live with that and not that I'm gonna stick to watching it anyway. [Being able to write about it does not make me a 'fan'. How can you ignore when you are sitting with a group of people watching it?]
Yang menjadikan drama ini bongok ialah bila banyak sangat adegan-adegan yang clearly against our culture, not to mention, Islam. To name some - Inara in Ammar's bedroom hanging her pictures, Ammar and Nadira spending their night together in the middle of a bonfire(?), Nadira and Ammar alone in a room (where Nadira supposed to…

Common Gynaecological Problems in Women - A Health Talk

I attended a health talk on Common Gynaecological Problems in Women by Dr. Narinder Singh from Island Hospital, Penang in conjuction of Agilent Health Week. I must say, he is one cute ObGyn! He even models a uterus himself to better illustrate what's going on inside there in certain health condition. Haha. You could only imagine how a guy did that up to Victoria Secret level and not cheap porn.
To wrap up today's session:
1) Know your body, girls. If something goes wrong or does not look or feel normal, go to your doctor. Don't just talk to your girlfriends.
2) To whom it may concern; never miss your pap smear.
3) Don't frighten yourselves from getting information about your health condition. Be curious, be cautious. We have advanced health technology; you just need to reach for the help.
4) Skip buying more shoes, handbags or garments you don't really need and spend the extra money on HPV vaccination - per the doctor. Didn't I tell you he is a cute ObGyn? ;)
Writing…

A Crush Heart Break

Crush heartbreak is still a heartbreak. It still hurts. Well, not that hurt hurt. I usually laugh through it and make a 48 pt bold note not to steal the tiniest glance at the target, ever again. Usually life goes on as per normal and you’ll get over it. By ‘usually’, does not mean it happen that much. But you got my point, right?
Ugh.
Saying it out loud, me.

Pejuang Pena

Assalamualaikum,

Hari ini Hilal Asyraf menukilkan bacaan yang menyentuh hati saya. Karya beliau yang terakhir kali sebagai seorang bujang - esok beliau akan bernikah. Yang menyentuh hati bukan kisah cinta beliau. Tetapi kisah bagaimana LangitIlahi dilahirkan untuk perkenalan para pembaca sekelian. Juga bagaimana kelahiran LangitIlahi itu sendiri 'melahirkan' seorang Hilal Asyraf.

"Semua itu membentuk kehidupan saya.
Kehidupan yang sukar menjadi lebih ringan.
Kehidupan yang sepi menjadi lebih terisi.
Dan Allah SWT izin, kehidupan saya sendiri mula berubah."

"Allah SWT memberikan saya potensi, maka saya bercita-cita untuk tidak membazirkannya."

[ Boleh baca Umum: Catatan Terakhir Sebagai Bujang Di LangitIlahi.Com dengan lebih lanjut ]

[Baca juga Jawapan Hilal Asyraf kepada Tun Dr Mahathir Mohamad sebagai respons kepada persoalan berkenaan Hukum Hudud oleh Tun Dr. Mahathir Mohamad yang kemudiannya dijawab menerusi Jawapan Kepada Hilal.

- Membacanya mengingatkan…

Forza Azzurri -- Congrats & Thank You

Whoa. What a game!
Almost drop my jaw for the first goal. Bit my fingers for the second goal. Lost my words when Thiago Motta left the game. Experienced vertigo for the third goal. Lie down for the fourth.
Full time: Italy 0 - 4 Spain ( Silva 14' | Jordi Alba 41' | Torres 84' | Juan Mata 88' )
Football heart break is genuine heart break. Especially when two sweethearts fight against each other. Can't you two just be in one team?! (sincerely me, being silly~)

It is heart crushing to see Buffon leading the squad for their silver medallion. It is epic to see Casillas with the trophy. It would be more epic to see Buffon with the trophy ^_____^ v
Winning EUFA EURO 2012 is important for both Italy and Spain. Italy to wins after 44 years and Spain to wins their third European title consequently. My darling Azzurri has given their best; but best men win (better men win?). La Roja definitely deserve the title. We have seen how determination being redefined by Spain in World Cup 2010. They…