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Getting Out of the Slump

Sometimes I feel like crying will solve everything. When I feel like that, I know I am in the slump - "The New Moon" slump. I called it that because I am in a similar state as Bella Swan in The New Moon after Edward Cullen left her.
"It's like a huge hole has been punched through my chest."
"Normal memories were still dangerous. If I let myself slip up, I’d end up with my arms clutching my chest to hold it together, gasping for air..."
These.
It's hard to get out from this state, but I have bounce back before. It took a lot of patience, a lot of determination, a generous amount of support, and most importantly: a strong will.
The strongest will is fueled by living up to the purpose of our creation - to submit and worship Allah.
Crying does solve everything; when you used up all your energy and cry in your solat and doa.
It is always the darkest before the new moon. And stars are the brightest during this time.

I'll find my way - I assure myse…

That's The Way It Is

E-M-N-O-V
That's all you need to spell "move on". Admittedly, it is not that simple. 7 years and I am still in "move on" mode. But -- I can assure that I am "moving on" and I am making a progress.
I like to see this as a learning curve. We learn to love, we learn to trust, and then we learn about heartbreak. Now we learn to nurse that heart. I discover a lot of thing about myself in this 7 years. Well, it started off with much pain. Hahaha. But the wisdom I gain from it is precious.
One must continue living to experience it all.
The first thing to do is to acknowledge it. Yes I am going through this and this. Yes I am feeling this and this. Mindfulness -- it's my new favorite word. It means you're aware of your feeling. If you don't know where it hurts, you can't nurse it.
Secondly, pick up and hold on to the positive element in your life. Buttttttt, do not involve in rebound thingy. It is because in moment like this, it is easy to fe…