Friday, August 28, 2015

A Really Sad Brownies - The End of a Beautiful Love Story

It is confirmed that this week's episode will be the final episode for uri Honey Bee Couple.
Lee Jeong Hee's "Tears Didn't Fall" is perfect for today.

Because I was so sad, tears didn’t fall
I just stood at that place, and said I understood
As time stopped, my heart stopped too
Everything that happened just seemed like something from a dream
Always and forever

In short, I am devastated by the news.
*It is* silly, I know. But still, I am sad thinking that I won't be able to see this couple on screen anymore. Who cares if this is a total fake. You don't get to see Lee Jong Hyun *this* pretty everyday! And, and, and... I actually like Gong Seung Yeon.

I will remember this couple prettily.

Dear Honey Bee Couple,
You planted flowers in my heart. Please live happily.

Note: This is the moment you wish there is some truth in Kpop entertainment industry. A wish that your bias *is* a good person in real life. A hope that they're surrounded by good people who *really* care for their well-being. It is so hard to stomach the alternate universe where everything is just the opposite of the world you pictured. It is heart breaking if career comes first over true love.
xoxo, a fangirl.

Iconic Bee Couple.


Just us.

You are the most handsome and beautiful when you're in love.

You don't get to see that laugh everyday...

Comic book date!

Handsome groom and pretty bride.

The moment time stopped...

LJH's exclusive expression.

*The* picture that SY took in Jejudo.

Couple song! I am excited to hear the song; I can't get the tune out of my mind.

The finale... Huhuhuhuhu

The wedding picture that I love~~

My favorite scene :)

Friday, August 21, 2015

I Think of You

"When the sun shines on the sea, I think of you.
When the dim moonlight is on the spring, I think of you."

From The Classic

Tuesday, August 18, 2015

Strong, Smart, and Brave

“Be strong enough to stand alone, smart enough to know when you need help, and brave enough to ask for it.”
- Ziad K. Abdelnour

I am not strong, not smart, and not brave.
I honestly feel like I am not any of it lately. There were days where I questioned my decision to live with this particular personality and identity. There were moments when I ask myself why I need to wear this mask and then regret taking it off. Recently, I have been wondering what happen to the full-of-spirit girl - the girl who sees her path and took it positively and bravely. I don't feel like that girl anymore. Not so much.

Even strong, smart, and brave people need a moment to be their human self. You know, the sides that you rarely see or never know were there.

Sometime I just feel like frowning. I just want to take off the smiling mask and frown... freely. Without anyone asking me to justify the reason I am frowning. Without anyone who would tell me that it is okay to do that, but then added that a better person won't do it. Without anyone to try too hard to make the frowning disappear. Without anyone to judge me. Without anyone to fix me.
I just need someone who would say that it is fine; he/she won't say a word and will silently sit beside me.

Personally, as years goes by, I am more determined to simplify myself to fit into my complicated life. Not many things matter that much anymore. It's not that I don't want it; it's just not my current priority.

Today, I make it my top priority to be strong, smart, and brave - for myself and for those I love.


Monday, August 17, 2015

A Sad Day for Brownies - Uri Bee Couple is Leaving

Lee Jong Hyun is the cool and mysterious musician you fall in love every time. He doesn’t have that idol persona compare to other CNBLUE members. He is a man with less words and expression. His world is music. The only way to get to know him is through his music. You need to listen to his music. You need to see him performing with his eyes close. [Coward] [Thank You] [Yes] [Love Rides the Rain] [II Will.Forget You] [Sleepless Night] [Love is...] [My Miracle] [Lie] [Voice]

That is why to see him as a different person in We Got Married 4 is very *exciting*. It is addicting. BOICEs would agree with me, who would have thought LJH has those sides. No one. I cringe when he showered Gong Seung Yeon with compliments and sorts in the first few episodes. Where is uri LJH?! I was convinced that LJH is actually a player in real life behind that cool Busan namja facade after a while. And the sweet and cute GSY... it's nice to see her with LJH. I mean, we all understand - it's LJH - normal girls would react positively and exactly like that around him. But to see them together is just... good. They look good together.

That smile. That dimples. That laugh. That aegyo. The way they teases each other.

WGM is well-known for being a scripted-but-not-scripted reality show. Totally understand that. Though I am with the Brownies - wanting the relationship to be real, we get the point. Really.

But today - after that crazily adorable wedding, lovely first dance, and beautiful Jeju trip plus the sweet parasailing confession - WGM announce that the Bee Couple is leaving the show.

Excuse me, but you break my heart.

It is understandable that CNBLUE is making a comeback and LJH need to focus o his music. We BOICEs want him to do that. And CNBLUE will be super busy *as always* during promotion - he won't have time for WGM. Yong also left WGM and ended the Goguma fever for their first album. I have been preparing myself for their departure since I got the news.
But not today. Not after that crazily adorable wedding, lovely first dance, and beautiful Jeju trip plus the sweet parasailing confession.
Even the thrill of CNBLUE's comeback can't cover up the frustration.

It. is. just. too. soon. It doesn't matter they haven't film the final episode.It is still too soon! And you're showering us with those sweetness overload.
Gah. So mean.

Me, being childish.
Sincerely, so what.

Wednesday, August 12, 2015

My Heart is So Tired

My heart is so tired.
The end.