Monday, September 28, 2009

Message in a Bottle


I finished reading Message in a Bottle (by Nicholas Sparks) on 0740, 18 September 2009.
Such a sad ending… I mean, I watched the movie but I did not recall the piece to be this sad. It must be the letters. In the movie I don’t really catch up with what the letters were saying. Reading the letters words by words, they left deep marks on my heart.

[With a sigh] Does great love must come with equal grief?

No, seriously… is it a must?
Can’t there be great love that always great without any grief?
[Tak puas hati sebab pagi-pagi dah rasa sedih]

Here’s for a quick glance of the novel:

Theresa’s final letter to Garret said;
This is not a good-bye, my darling, this is a thank-you. Thank you for coming into my life and giving me joy, thank you for loving me and receiving my love in return. Thank you for the memories I will cherish forever. But most of all, thank you for showing me that there will come a time when I can eventually let you go”. (Nicholas Sparks, Message in a Bottle, 1998, pg. 369-370)

Garret wrote letters to his late wife, telling every bit of his sadness. As old fashioned as guys out there think, those letters ease his pain and concealed memories of her – and touched hearts who read it.
This is only for one reason: Garret’s messages are messages living people (seldom) got to hear -- always an epitaph.

[Not related to Message in a Bottle]
Why wait until that someone die or gone to say nice words about him/her?
Speaking from your heart would not make you a weaker person.
Don’t you know that simple stuff like that change the world?

Love while you can love because when love stops loving, everything stops.
If you would like to convey a message or a feeling, don’t wait too long. Because you never know whether or not the moment you are waiting for will come eventually. The only moment might just pass.

What is your message in the bottle?

Sunday, September 27, 2009

Helen Keller


I decided to find a quote from Helen Keller; after the inspirational quotes on this blog showed a quote from her which says: When you do the best you can, you never know what miracle is wrought in your life, or in the life of another.

While browsing, I was so surprise to find tones of websites under “Helen Keller jokes”. At first, I thought the websites quoted jokes from Helen Keller. Unfortunately, the websites actually amass jokes regarding Helen Keller.
The first joke wrote: How does Helen Keller drive? One hand on the wheel and one hand one the road!
The other said: How do you Punish Helen Keller? 1- Rearrange the Furniture 2- Give her a basketball and tell her to read it. 3- Tell her to find the corners in a round room.
And another one: Why does Helen Keller have holes in her face? She tried eating with a fork.

I can tell that these people were having fun joking on her like that. The jokes sounded more and more offensive as I read, so I stopped.

Obviously they are aware of whom Helen Keller was and yet, they showed no respect at all. First, she was deaf and blind. Secondly, she was a great human being. None of these two facts touches their souls or make sense in their intellect.

Some jokes are better left untold.


Friday, September 25, 2009

Hijab IS Freedom


Definition of Hijab:
The headscarf worn by Muslim women, sometimes including a veil that covers the face except for the eyes.
The veiling or seclusion of women in some Islamic societies, customarily practiced in order to maintain standards of modesty.

More on:

Hijab IS freedom. I couldn’t agree more on any statement than that. This is one of many realities in Islam that has been twisted and tangled. Started only as “known fact”, I only realized how important for all Muslimah to explain and to explain the dignity of Islam and the hijab itself while watching a serial drama, Jack & Bobby (

A Man of Faith's Episode summary:
Bobby's interest in religion is piqued when he helps Warren study for his Bar Mitzvah. Elsewhere, Grace insults a student (Lina Patel) with deep religious beliefs, prompting a campus-wide boycott of her classes; Jack gets a chance to rejoin the track team when the coach needs a replacement runner for Marcus, who's on academic probation. (

It was an episode of religions. The details are all indistinct and I can only endow with overall idea of the episode for this sharing. Grace is the mother of Jack and Bobby. She’s a professor, I am totally sorry I can’t recall in which field. But her thoughts and lectures were great. In “A Man of Faith” episode Grace insults a Muslim student in her class. If my neurons did not retrieve wrong information, the class was discussing about religions of the world. Students were giving their opinion and Grace was sharing her opinion, too. Throwing ideas, she did not realize that she has jumped into a narrow point of view when talking about Islam. As far as I can remember, she feels like Islam is a religion of oppression especially for women. She touches over the syariat of wearing hijab, saying that women too, have the rights to show any body parts they wished to. The implication of her open opinion was that students started to boycott her class and demand her apology to the Muslim student.

Long story short, the student, Lina Patel meets Grace personally. Lina explains that she never asked anyone to stand up for her or to boycott Grace’s classes. She also added that the incident was getting wild and mislead when she was approached for religion talks. I did not remember at all the content of the conversation. But here come the best part – Lina ingenuously shared with Grace that instead of oppressing Muslim women, hijab is actually giving Muslim women freedom. Lina’s explanation was that, by wearing hijab Muslim women have option on who can see her body, and which part of the body. Deep inside Grace agreed and have gained her understanding and better perspective towards Islam.

I remember being angry and regret while watching that specific episode. I felt regret because I loves Jack & Bobby and I was angry because my favorite TV show was insulting Islam!

There’s another story regarding hijab, this time seen through a non-muslim woman in a country outside Malaysia. The woman shared to a columnist that she often goes out wearing hijab. The reason given was that she feels safe in the hijab and she is respected by other Muslim brothers and sisters. He said that hijab makes her feel at peace and safe while outside the house – she can see everyone, but other people can’t see her. She also added that while on public transportation, seat was offered to her and she knows well that the offer came sincerely for her, not because how she looks and how short her skirt is.

Hijab is freedom, not oppression.
Aurat guarantee dignity, not oppression.
Islam is beautiful; it’s the best way of life.

Around the world, our sisters are fighting for their hijab; there has been near-death experience. Other people might perceive hijab as a piece of cloth used to cover the hair/head. And when I say “other people”, it implies both non-muslim and Muslim. For non-muslim to understand, for Muslim to learn to respect.


Thursday, September 24, 2009

5 Syawal


03:24 24 September 2009.
5 Syawal 1430H.

Tajuk berita di Utusan Malaysia Online tidak kelihatan menarik untuk aku meneruskan pembacaan. Sembang di Facebook dah diam... Mungkin si dia di hujung talian sedang dibuai mimpi indah. Facebook juga telah sunyi.

Berseorangan di ruang dapur di Taiping. Semua sedang nyenyak tidur. Yang kedengaran hanyalah bunyi papan kekunci, kipas, dengung lampu kalimantang dan dengkuran dari kumpulan orang yang sedang bermimpi. Dalam kekecohan Syawal, ketika hening pagi begini sahaja aku mempunyai kesempatan untuk melayari internet. Kesibukan sebagai tuan rumah adalah salah satu faktor, tetapi kehadiran kanak-kanak riang yang obses dengan gajet dan permainan video (aplikasi mahupun dalam talian) - itulah cabaran utama.

Alhamdulillah, 1 Syawal berlalu dengan lancar.
Oleh kerana keluarga arwah Mak nak bertandang ke rumah, Abah telah membawa kami berhari raya ke rumah saudara maranya dalam masa sehari tersebut (bukanlah semua, sekadar saudara yang telah lama tiada berita). Keesokan harinya, kami beramai-ramai jatuh sakit. Aku dengan sakit-sakit badan aibat makan pulut, adik-adik dengan CB. Jadi, raya kedua kami habiskan dengan tidur. Hahaha. Kelakar juga bila difikirkan.

Banyak yang nak dikongsikan. Tapi mata dan berat dan masa dah menghambat. Ada aktiviti di pagi hari yang perlu diberikan perhatian. Walaupun memang normal untuk aku terlepas “gotong-royong” menyiapkan sarapan pagi. Hehehe. I am trying my very best to improve my self on that side.

Sedikit tentang sesuatu yang menarik.

Syawal kali ini amat istimewa dalam pelbagai cara.
Aku rasa lebih dewasa dan bertanggungjawab dalam menguruskan hal rumahtangga. Rumahtangga yang bagaimana? Lain kali aku kupas dengan lebih terperinci. Secara ringkasnya, urusan rumahtangga yang berkaitan dengan sambutan Hari Raya.

Aku memang tak pernah terbayang yang aku mempunyai kemampuan untuk melakukan apa yang telah aku berjaya lakukan. In a way, I feel like I am complete and able. Perfect would sound exaggerating. But that’s how it felt when I finally realized what I have managed to do. And, I was hoping that my family would feel the same way too - that ‘Aini is changing.

03:50 – I can’t think anymore…


Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Ramadhan - Syawal 1430H/2009M


First of all, this isn’t a sour note. So please put up some smiles and cheers while reading it.

This year is the first year we are embracing Ramadhan and celebrating the Syawal without Mak. This is the most soundless Ramadhan I have ever felt in 25 years. It was soundless, but the excitement is there. Ramadhan has always brings a pleasant serene feeling to me; I always loves Ramadhan. In my immature-kind-mind, I’d say because the satan and jin are all being tied up… that is equal to no ghost. Hahaha. This year’s Ramadhan was even more serene as I know that Mak got to rest these 30 days and being blessed by HIM with lot and lot of love.

Talking about Ramadhan, there was reminiscence in it. I can’t help myself from thinking what she always cooked, or what was her favorite-must-cook dish for our family or for herself. One day, I past a stall selling nasi daging at bazaar and suddenly I missed her so much. She’d cook nasi daging for most of special occasion [or occasion she felt special]. Another must-have-dish would be deep fried anchovies with potato chips and sambal, and I am sure she’ll cook bubur gandum or sum sum or lompat tikam, if any of these mentioned by me. I was cracking my head to cook something special for my family on the last iftar. Well, I am not Mak and my cooking skills are nothing close to her. But at least they know that I did try hard to fill this Ramadhan with as much love as I can.

Ramadhan was fast. Not that it’s not good, but I only get two iftars with my family at Taiping and once at Melaka with Tok, Pak Tam’s and Achik’s family. Like a whoosh of wind, the Syawal is approaching. This year, we will be celebrating 1st of Syawal at Abah’s hometown in Kedah. It’s been a while since we celebrate 1st Syawal there; I can’t remember when. We were the host of Aidilfitri these past few years – with Tok staying with us then with Mak’s health condition. So, per Hakim’s, it is the time for us to celebrate Aidilfitri at Kedah.

I’d say this year’s Aidilfitri can be the most not-tiring-preparation. I don’t have to worry about curtains, or to clean the floor, the fans, the windows, nor that have I to dive deep into the cabinet grabbing the cutlery, wash them and later on got headache for analyzing on how to keep them in place for the rest of the week. I bought less kuih raya [save me money], only going back to Kedah on Saturday [Aidilfitri the next day], and the best part is I don’t have to worry about duit raya [I’m not the host. Yeay!].

As Ramadhan is about to end, I received questions on how am I feeling. I am fine, alhamdulillah, for the time being. I can’t say that I’ll still be fine when hearing the first takbir, or when there’ll be fewer hands to shake. I hope I’ll be fine, insyaAllah. I also hope my siblings are well, too. At least please don’t let them hold their feeling inside -- only to explode it all out someday. If we are going to cry then we will all cry. Being strong is good, but there’s no point in playing cool.

Sadness kills; so don’t be.
There are always bright sides of everything. My creativity doesn’t know how to write about it… But, if you would want to know you can always ask. The story sounds better in two way communications.

Salam Aidilfitri kepada semua. Salah silap harap dimaafi. Mohon halalkan makanan, minuman, wang ringgit dan ilmu.


Tuesday, September 15, 2009



First and foremost, Taylor Swift’s You Belong with Me MV won! Congratulations, girl.
Been listening to that song a year ago, but never listened to it for some time until Kak Maz posted the MV on Facebook. [A thank you note to Kak Maz]
Non-fans labeled the MV as another-fairy-tale-like MV by Taylor Swift. They are just so jealous of her and her golden curls. The MV should have won the best MV of the year as well.

The Song
First idea: Not all guys required a pretty girl.
Second idea: “Beauty” defines abstractly.
Third idea: Fight for your love… could be your love is waiting for you to save him/her from being stuck with inappropriate partner :p hahaha

Singing this song shouts out the I’m-on-the-bleachers side of a girl [cheer-captain, please back off]. I am not sure about you, but I have been that girl. And singing this song is actually a pleasure. The lyrics is a composition of the simplest and most na├»ve thought of a I’m-on-the-bleacher. Anyway, the story was like the song except the ending. I was not wearing the right shoes at that time. From experience, my three ideas are a fact. The problem is that these ideas only make sense to me after few years in the 20s.

Conclusion 1: Guys like the guy in the MV exist :D
Conclusion 2: Guys opposite the guy in the MV exist, too, unfortunately :p
Conclusion 3: Guys like Kanye West, well, exist and wasting every resource of the earth. [can we please imagine that I have added something rude in front of his name??!]

I am surprised that the trophy for the category was presented by Taylor Lautner/Jacob Black (together with Shakira). That was so sweet. Hahahaha! The relationships, per stated in a post was that Shakira with her She Wolf song and Lautner is a warewolf. As for Lautner-Swift… They are in Valentine’s Day movie. [WOW!] [did I get the titles correct?]

[I still think Lautner should have phase on the stage when West came in]

The [coincidently] similarities both Swift and Lautner share is that they are teenagers [they are 17?] with good personality, loved by their fans, professional as a public figure and charming in their own way. I always like Swift and her music career [her lyrics and music are great]. As for Lautner, even though I am not Team Jacob I find him as outside-of-book-Edward in all way.

And putting all together; the song, Swift and Lautner….
[Taylor Swift would never fit into Twilight Saga, no offense] I sort of thinking the mood of You Belong with Me depicted what Jacob Black been fighting for in New Moon-Eclipse. Please do not imagine Jacob singing the song [Ewww!]. Hear what the song is telling [some part of it, whichever appropriate for a guy].

Until next idea!

You Belong With Me
Taylor Swift

You're on the phone with your girlfriend, She's upset
She's going off about something that you said
She doesn't get your humour like I do

I'm in the room, its a typical Tuesday night
I'm listening to the kind of music she doesn't like
And she'll never know your story like I do

But she wears short skirts, I wear t-shirts
She's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming bout the day when you'll wake up and find
That what you're lookin for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can't you see?
You Belong With Me
You belong with me

Walkin the streets with you in your worn out jeans
I cant help thinking this is how it ought to be
Laughing on the park bench thinkin to myself
Hey isnt this easy?

And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town
I havent seen it in awhile, since she brought you down
You say you find I know you better than that
Hey, Whatcha doing with a girl like that?

She wears high heels, I wear sneakers
She's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming bout the day when you'll wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can't you see?
You belong with me

Standin by, waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know that?
You belong with me
You belong with me

Oh I remember you driving to my house in the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes you laugh when you know you're about to cry
I know your favorite songs and you tell me about your dreams
I think I know where you belong. I think I know it's with me.

Can't you see that I'm the one who understand you?
Been here all along so why can't you see?
You belong with me

Standing by or waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know that
You belong with me
You belong with me

Have you ever thought just maybe
You belong with me
You belong with me

Monday, September 14, 2009



The 3rd trailer of Twilight Saga New Moon is finally out – officially! said: Robert Pattinson, Kristen Stewart and Taylor Lautner presented the clip and looked phenomenal doing so, of course!
Well, they should!
People would kill for Twilight Saga – even the 3rd trailer got “pirated” and unofficially published in Youtube one day before the VMA. The 3rd trailer is just soooo tempting, “the trailer has a little bit of everything - Volturi, cliff-diving, werewolves, fight scenes, drama, love, and more”. (

My favorite parts are the parts of Bella-Edward (isn’t that obvious?).
Specifically, a scene when Bella watched a mirage of Edward disappears in the parking lot at school and says that “the absence of him is everywhere I look… it’s like a huge hole has been punched through my chest”. And the expression pictured by Kristen Stewart just “wow”! (Picture below) That’s the feeling that caused millions of readers stopped reading New Moon and started flipping through the end of the book looking for Edward.

My second favorite is a scene from the cliff diving. Bella is drowning (herself?) and Edward is beside her. Then Jacob pulled Bella away and her hand touches Edward, and “Edward” disappears. (Picture below) That is something. Is it me, or all the fans out there share this kind of feeling with me?!

This new trailer is a tribute to Kristen Stewart. Yes Kristen, we are all flattered by your immense range in displaying bitter distress. I couldn’t image how Kristen life was during the filming of New Moon. To depict convincing anguish on face expression, the anguish has to be there. Simple logic: one looks terrible if one feel terrible. Bella is sad because Kristen feel sad.
Kristen, I don’t know how did you bring Bella into life, but I hate it each time I have to undergo the Edward-leaves-Bella scene/dialogue.

I was thinking while looking at Kristen’s picture – Each time I feel “a big hole has been punched through my chest”… was that kind of expression I wear on my face? Especially when love really torn of the sanity in me. You know the future-wrinkle kind of expression…? Thank you to Allah I don’t get to see my own expression that time :p Haha.

I was the one who enjoys being in sad situation. Insane, but feeling bad made me feel life worth living. But it was too cold for me; and I don’t like anything that is wet or cold. Hahaha. Happiness is warmth and lovely and colorful (I got to choose green, white and brown not just black or white) and… all!

Other human being always prefers happy emotion and happy face. Sad emotion and sad face scared them away. But I have met people who stay when I am in a bad shape… Listening to my all-time-boring-agony story, and facing this horrible-tortured-like expression of mine. These people are friends. Just like Jacob, or maybe Angela Webber. These are friends.

Good friends are miracle for all, especially a Melancholy. They can put up smile on Melancholy’s face. They can blow away the gloomy cloud and force the sun to shine. So, if you do have Melancholy friends (or any type of friends who is gloomy and sad and lost in their way finding happiness), please, please, please try and do your best to be the miracle.

Sadness isn’t contagious. So stop hiding from sad people and start to make yourself useful!
On the other hand, happiness and good thoughts are contagious.
Feeling bad did not help that much.
But happiness gives you healthier brain, that is equal to better thinking – sounds handy when you would like to make world a better place :D

P/S: Happy birthday Bella Swan 13-Sept-09!


Saturday, September 12, 2009



Alhamdulillah, arrived at Taiping 5 pm this evening. Just nice for me to prepare 2 dishes for today's iftar. Even though there's a change in the menu, the foods are edible... Yeay! Well, having 3 sort-of-expert-guy-chefs and a younger I-don't-simply-eat-normal-food sibling sometime can be "motivating" :D Oh well.. at the end they always finish all the food!

The most exciting thing in this whole wide world is, of course named Cahya Laila As-Syifa. I've been so excited to get home to meet her... to be around her. This feeling is... wonderful. It remind me exactly back to 25 years ago, when Achik got home from her school and stop by to visit a baby girl, named Haffizzatul 'Aini Aton. Yes, that's me, and Achik (despite that she's my auntie) has always been the sister of all purposes for me. She once said: "You were so small, and so cute.. but suddenly here you are... Already a big girl".

The same moment touches me.

This is Cahya Laila As-Syifa... So small, so vulnerable, so innocent. She can even fit on my arm. She grows up everyday... Born 2.56 kg, after 3 weeks she's already 3.4 kg. Time flies each days and I, I might miss that moment. Then I can quoted back Achik's statement; you were so small, and so cute.. but suddenly here you are... Already a big girl. After today, she'll grow up fulfilling her fate, chasing over her dreams, finding the love of her life... She'll start another wonderful family then. And the so the story continues.

Babies amazed me. They always do. The purest of soul, born to be the khalifah of ALLAH; born to be HIS servant. Their small hands clutched tightly holding the promised they made to HIM. The promised most of us forget through our birthdays. These babies... You just got to look into their eyes... Those are the faces in heaven.

How could anyone not love these babies..? How would..?

Parents and parent across continents would die to have HIS amanah.
But sadly, parents and parent here and there willingly to let their baby die, so that they can live on.

What kind of heart these human being carried in their body, I wonder…


Sleeping Child by Michael Learns To Rock

The Milky Way upon the heaven is twinkling just for you
And Mr. Moon he came by to say goodnight to you
I'll sing for you, I'll sing for mother, we're praying for the world
And for the people everywhere gonna show them all we care

Oh my sleeping child, the world's so wild but you've built your own paradise
That's one reason why I'll cover you sleeping child

If all the people around the world, they had a mind like yours
We'd have no fighting and no wars, there would be lasting peace on earth
If all the kings and all the leaders, could see you here this way
They would hold the earth in their arms, they would learn to watch you play

Oh my sleeping child, the world's so wild but you've built your own paradise
That's one reason why I'll cover you sleeping child

(Cover my child) I'm gonna cover my sleeping child
(Keep you away) keep you away from the world so wild
Keep you away from the world, away from the world so wild

Oh my sleeping child, the world's so wild but you've built your own paradise
That's one reason why I'll cover you sleeping child
Oh my sleeping child, the world's so wild but you've built your own paradise
That's one reason why I'll cover you sleeping child

Friday, September 11, 2009

Permulaan Yang Baik


Alhamdulillah, akhirnya telah bersedia untuk menggunapakai blog ini.
Tiada entry sebagai pembukaan (walaupun terfikir untuk recycle entry terakhir di Friendster bertajuk Jacob Black). Minggu ini penuh dengan inspirasi. Dan salah satu inspirasi adalah berkaitan dengan lirik lagu di bawah.

Semoga kebaikan terus dapat dikongsikan menerusi blog ini :)

My Ummah oleh Sami Yusuf

My ummah, my ummah
He will say
Rasulullah on that day
Even though we've strayed from him and his way
My brothers, my sisters, in Islam
Let's struggle, work, and pray
If we are to
Bring back the glory of his way

Ya Allah ya rabbal ‘alamin
Ya rahmanu ya rahim
Ya rabbiO Allah Lord of the Worlds
O Merciful and Beneficent
O my Lord

Let the Ummah rise again
Let us see daylight again
Once again
Let's become whole again
Proud again
'Cause I swear with firm belief in our hearts
We can bring back the glory of our past

My ummah, my ummah
He will say
Rasulullah on that day
Even though we strayed from him and his way
Look at where we were
And look at where we are
And tell meIs this how he'd want it to be?
Oh no! Let us bring back our glory