Showing posts from November, 2015

A Note to Myself

When I broke up, I leave everything - I mean *everything* - behind and move on. Today, that is the stupidest decision I made. I should have stayed in that dimension, make gallons of lemonade, and keep being awesome in something I am good at. He broke my heart and made me cry, and I let go all possible opportunities because I want to disconnect from him. Nope. It doesn't sound so cool. Anyway, it was one of the hardest moments in my life. I was getting rid as many as I can from my sinking ship. I survive and I get another chance in life.
Today I almost make the same mistake. I almost walk away from another dimension just because it gets more acidic from the lemons thrown at me - a partner is giving me a hard time.
*stomping my feet*, *chin up* This is *my* world. I have work hard for this. I am not going to stop and step away just because some people makes it little harder. I refuse to do that.
It will be painful, I will cry, and I might need more counselling session. I'll tak…

Rainbow Make Me Cry

Menangis. Menangis sebab lepas hujan pagi ni pelangi tak kelihatan. I want to stay in my car longer and wait for it, but duty call. Adakah aku menangis kerana tak nampak pelangi dalam ruang waktuku, or did I cried because I can't have the extra waiting time to wait for a rainbow? Pelangi bukan sentiasa muncul setiap kali lepas hujan. Am I going to cry every time? Hujan diturunkan bukan untuk mencipta pelangi. Hujan diturunkan oleh Maha Pencipta untuk menghidupkan bumi.
There's rainbow forming somewhere, anyway; with or without rain.
Hold on there, dear darling. Hold on a little longer. Masa gembira bukan selamanya. So does bad times.

100 KM and First Runniversary

Alhamdulillah. I achieve my 100 kilometers running target. Yeay! And it's my one year running anniversary. Another yeay! I can't believe I have run the distance and one year have passed. Rasa macam baru je mula berlari. Seriously.
Why I run?
I started running because I want to manage and contribute to Revert Sports Club (RSC) properly. If I can't understand the runners' need, I can't find the opportunity to contribute and to improve. Asking and observing will do the job, but what's the use of going to Gemba Kaizen course if I can't do this much. Yep, too serious kan? Oh well, if I am going to do something for dakwah, I better do my best. Ini kan ibadah, I thought.
Running Evolution
"This is my final run" "I won't run that much" "I'll just be the luggage/water girl"
Jawatan yang akhir tu sampai hari ni tak dapat!
After a while, running is no longer RSC business. I conciously decide that running will be a part of me. I act…

A Peaceful Dreamless Sleep

When you have cried too much, when you have endure all types of pain, all you want to do is run and curl up into a ball somewhere far from everybody. There's a sharp pain in your chest - your heart is crushed - you need to hug yourself because it feels like you are going to lost control. You clenched your hands; holding on to the last bit of hope to stop you from falling off the ledge.
You close your eyes. Hoping to undo a lot of things. Wanting to erase scenes you no longer have the courage to revisit. Desperate to forget moments that is too painful to remember. Hopefully when you wake up, it was a peaceful dreamless sleep.

Kwon Soo Ah

Reference: Sassy Go Go Recap: DramaBeans
Kwon Soo Ah's Character Description:
Ranked second place in school and a member of the Baek Ho club. Her mother pressures her to become first place and get into an Ivy League school. Hence, she resorts to manipulating the people around her in order to meet her mother's expectations. She is unapologetic for hurting others and insensitive to their feelings.
I must be crazy - of all the character, I am writing about Soo Ah. She a b*, she did plenty of bad stuff, and she is worth hating. But if you ask me, she doesn't look happy doing it. She looks terrified and super desperate. Every time she sold her soul to the dark side, I am seeing it as the opportunity she really needs to get away from the ledge. The only way out for her.
In my opinion rather than being a solid antagonist, Soo Ah is another misunderstood character in the middle of bustling high school. Her character's background was written very well; it leaves me walking along…