Friday, December 31, 2010

As-Salam 2011


Assalamualaikum,

2010 is a tough year. It is a year of self potential discovery. It is a year of being a tea bag in boiled water. With correct temperature and timing, with or without sugar and other additional, everybody would enjoy a decent cup of tea.

In the darkest of night that you'll see the brightest of stars; and the sun always rise every day. There's no such thing as bad weather, only different kind of good weathers. Despite all the turmoil happened along this year, my life is not that bad. In fact, I think I am happier... I feel serene inside.

Life is a lesson and experience is the best teacher. No matter what happen or how hard the lesson is, tomorrow would still come and we would have to walk another day, weeks, months and years. Nothing would stay unchanged, everything change - from amniotic fluid to oxygen. A baby learns to breathe.

I have gain friends. I know who likes to ride the limo with me and who will always accompany me to walk on a rainy day. I've seen my life as walking on a runway; I even wish it is as simple as shoes - but nothing to compare with the experience by being me and just me.

It is ordinary to start a new year with a resolution. I'm going to start my new year with a conclusion instead. At the end of this decade, I finally come to a conclusion that lifetime is too precious to be wasted with hatred, anger and meaningless matter. And the biggest lesson: 1) Love Allah - every second, 2) Patience is the key, 3) Forgiveness heals, and 4) Silence is the best policy - when you have nothing good to share.

On top of everything, there's nothing to compare; when HE tested you and then with HIS guidance you find your way... not out, but towards 'knowing' HIM.
All praises to HIM.
Subhanallah...

Pssttt: I only realized that 2011 is the beginning of a new decade from a TV program. Hmmm... I remember the time when the year 2000 arrives. Oh it feels like yesterday - celebrating a new century. 10 more years until vision 2020.

Doa: Semoga Allah memberkati permulaan satu lagi dekad dengan iman yang diperkukuhkan dan cinta kepadaNYA yang semakin banyak.

Farewell to 2010 and welcome 2011.

Wassalam.
‘A picture speaks a thousand words'. So here are the pictures representing moments, people and occasions in 2010.

Thursday, December 30, 2010

Rx: C.N Blue

Assalamualaikum,

Headache since morning (-___-)
Started to feel drowsy and dizzy after taking the prescribed pills (@___@)
Luckily Jung Yong-hwa and C.N Blue keep me on the ground ^____^

Wassalam.



I Will Forget You
C.N Blue

I will forget you starting today
I don’t know you
I have never seen you
We never even walked pass each other
I’m okay, I forgot everything
I’m happy with my busy life
I’ve met a great person too
Love is always like this
It fades away after some time
Can’t even remember it
When love goes away, another love comes again
It definitely will
Even if it hurts now, it will heal a little later
It will forget
I will too
It’s not difficult
I will forget everything after today
I’m just getting used to my changed life
Love is always like this
It fades away after some time
Can’t even remember it
When love goes away, another love comes again
It definitely will
Even if it hurts now, it will heal a little later
It will forget
I will too
I will erase everything
I definitely will
When love goes away, another love comes again
It definitely will
Even if tears fall now, I will smile a little later
I will (now) forget you (now).
Just like a wound heals…
I will. I will. I will forget you.

Syabas Malaysia!

Assalamualaikum,

Alhamdulillah, dengan izinNya, Malaysia telah berjaya merangkul kejayaan sebagai juara Kejohanan Bola Sepak Piala Suzuki AFF 2010 menerusi agregat 4-2 - penantian 14 tahun oke~

Walaupun Mohd. Safee Mohd. Sali dinobatkan sebagai best player (no doubt he is), tapi dihati 'Aini Khairul Fahmi Che Mat adalah hero sebenar ^____^ Sangat kagum dengan kebolehan beliau. Dah lama pasukan Malaysia takde wow factor macam tu. Overall, the whole team played it very well. Great. Rasa macam pasukan lama telah diculik Ultraman dan dipancarkan laser (oooopppppsss!) sehingga termutasi menjadi lebih baik. Hahahaha.

Di penghujung dekad ini, akhirnya Malaysia mempamerkan kesungguhan dan mutu perjuangan yang kembali menarik kepercayaan peminat bolasepak negara. Harap prestasi baik ini dapat dikekalkan. Janganlah bermusim - juara sekali kalahnya berkali-kali :)
To Fahmi: All the best. Jangankan aweks, cewek-cewek sekelian pun menaruh harapan yang tinggi terhadap kamu sekarang. Semoga dapat maintain prestasi yer~

Syabas Malaysia!

Nota kaki:
Bersorak sampai sakit kepala dan sakit tekak bersama budak-budak serumah. Habis jatuh saham keayuan masing-masing. Wahahahahaha~

Dalam kotak:
Alang-alang sepak bola, biar berjuang macam anak jantan. Tak payah nak berlakon tergolek-golek tengah padang dan mengadu mencari alas an kekalahan. Bak kata wartawan Kosmo!: “Namun, Khairul Fahmi membuktikan dirinya tidak selembik penjaga gol Indonesia, Markus Harison yang 'alah' dengan pancaran laser ketika aksi final pertama di Kuala Lumpur, Ahad lalu.”

Wassalam.

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Semua Milik DIA

Assalamualaikum,

Tersentuh hati mendengar kebenaran dari bait-bait ringkas yang dialunkan oleh Arwah Ustaz Asri dalam perjalanan ke Johor baru-baru ini.

Astaghfirullah...
Semoga Allah jauhkan sifat riak dan kufur nikmat dari hati para Muslimin dan Muslimat sekelian...
Amiin.

Sesungguhnya, semuanya milik Allah. Kita hanya makhluk yang melata mengharapkan kasih sayang Allah... Harap sedar diri.

Wassalam.

Mana Milik Kita
Rabbani

Mana milik kita?
Tidak ada milik kita
Semua yang ada
Allah yang punya
Tidak ada kita punya
Kita hanya mengusahakan saja
Apa yang kita dapat
Allah sudah sediakannya

Kita Allah punya
Bumi langit ciptaanNya
Miliklah apa saja
Tidak terlepas dari ciptaanNya
Mana kita punya?
Tidak ada kepunyaan kita
Kita hanya mengusahakan
Apa yang telah ada

Mana milik kita?
Tidak ada milik kita
Semua yang ada
Allah yang punya
Tidak ada kita punya
Kita hanya mengusahakan saja
Apa yang kita dapat
Allah sudah sediakannya

Mengapa kita sombong
Memiliki Allah punya
Mengapa tidak malu
Kepada Allah yang empunya
Patut bersyukur kepada Allah
Yang memberi segalanya
Malulah kepada Allah
Kerana milik Ia punya

Janganlah berbangga
Apa yang ada pada kita
Kalau Allah tidak beri
Kita tidak punya apa-apa
Janganlah mengungkit
Mengungkit jasa kita
Jasa kita di sisiNya
Yang sebenarnya Allah punya

Marilah kita bersyukur
Bukan berbangga
Bersyukur kepada Allah
Bukan mengungkit jasa
Gunakanlah nikmat Allah itu
Untuk khidmat kepadaNya
Selepas itu lupakan saja
Agar tidak mengungkit-ungkitnya

Mana milik kita?
Tidak ada milik kita
Semua yang ada
Allah yang punya
Tidak ada kita punya
Kita hanya mengusahakan saja
Apa yang kita dapat
Allah sudah sediakannya


Friday, December 24, 2010

Stay Just-the-Way-You-Are

Assalamualaikum,

Friday morning, while getting ready for work the radio station played a song.

"Her eyes, her eyes make the stars look like they're not shining. Her hair, her hair falls perfectly without her trying. She's so beautiful and I tell her every day..."

And I smiled to the reflection in the mirror. What a sweet guy, I thought. I can smile all day long for this kind of compliment.

"I know, I know, when I compliment her she won’t believe me. And it’s so, it’s so sad to think she don't see what I see..."

Errmmmm. This is new. So I stopped doing everything I do, grab my phone and listened to the song.

"When I see your face there's not a thing that I would change. Cause you're amazing just the way you are. And when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for a while. Cause girl you're amazing just the way you are..."

^_____^

"You know, you know, you know I'd never ask you to change. If perfect is what you're searching for then just stay the same..."

Of course I'll stay the same! If you said so... Hehehe. Then the radio station announces that the song is Bruno Mars' Just the Way You Are.

Finally, a perfect song in the morning. I do feel amazing just the way I am. The truth is, I can't stop smiling. I feel like my heart and lungs and liver are all smiling within me.

That's the feeling when an important guy in your life tells you that you are just perfect, sincerely.

While driving, I thought, it would be much sweeter if a husband tells this to his wife. And keep telling her this every day, on every anniversary until their 10th, 20th, 30th anniversary...

No matter how the wife is.
A husband must always be proud of their wife and sees her as the prettiest woman.

Her eyes still make the stars not shining no matter how buffy they are after sleepless night taking care of your babies.

Her smiles still make the world stops and stares for a while even with extra lines after years of comforting you.

She is still amazing no matter how much she have changed after giving you children of your own.

Hold her hands no matter how rough they have become from doing the house chores.

*sigh*

Jangan masa bercintan-cintun je.

Wassalam.


Just the Way You Are
Bruno Mars

Oh her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her
She won’t believe me
And it’s so, it’s so
Sad to think she don't see what I see

But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Her lips, her lips
I could kiss them all day if she'd let me
Her laugh, her laugh
She hates but I think it’s so sexy

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Oh you know, you know, you know
I'd never ask you to change
If perfect is what you're searching for
Then just stay the same

So don't even bother asking
If you look okay
You know I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

The way you are
The way you are
Girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazingJust the way you are

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Personal Mechanical/ Technical Advisory Wanted

Assalamualaikum,

This morning, I really really feel that I really really need a personal advisor - for car especially and other technical stuff in my life. *sigh* I hate it when I have to figure these technical stuff, and I hate it even more that I can't understand it! T____T

The possibility to run over to Perodua Service Center, again today, is very high. The probability of being hated is also high. I am so getting myself a personal Perodua advisor ASAP!

A car need more than just a manual~

Wassalam.

Friday, December 17, 2010

Finding the Way

Assalamualaikum,

There will come a time when you have gazillions why and what, you'd ask yourself every second of how and you can't never find the when. You'll live in denials and blames. You'd face a situation tears could not explain.

When the world itself no longer holds any sense for you, it is time to let it go - drop everything and forget the world and all in it that is hurting you - then prostrate before Him.

Prostrate your heart and soul before Him and tell Him:

"Oh Allah! I seek Your guidance by virtue of Your knowledge, and I seek ability by virtue of Your power, and I ask You of Your great bounty. You have power; I have none. And You know; I know not. You are the Knower of hidden things.
Oh Allah! If in Your knowledge, (this matter*) is good for my religion, my livelihood and my affairs, immediate and in the future, then ordain it for me, make it easy for me, and bless it for me. And if in Your knowledge, (this matter*) is bad for my religion, my livelihood and my affairs, immediate and in the future, then turn it away from me, and turn me away from it. And ordain for me the good wherever it may be, and make me content with it
."


When we lost in a dark place, we need the light. When we lost in an unknown place, we wish for the guide. But to find the light and the guidance is not easy. Most of things no longer make sense. You are losing the grip and you are losing your mind.

Hear this, darlings.
The light you are looking for, the guidance you longed for, the remedy and tips you are searching for - you'd find it in remembering Allah.


"Keadaan orang Mukmin itu sangat menakjubkan, kerana segala urusan yang menimpanya dianggap baik. Tetapi keadaan ini hanya berlaku kepada orang yang beriman. Iaitu, apabila mendapat kesenangan, dia bersyukur kerana itu lebih baik untuknya. Dan apabila dilanda kesusahan dia bersabar, kerana itu lebih baik untuknya."
(Riwayat Muslim daripada Abu Yahya Syuhaib bin Sinan r.a)

"Ketahuilah, andai semua manusia berkumpul untuk memberi manfaat kepadamu, mereka tidak akan mampu melakukannya kecuali sesuai dengan apa yang telah Allah tentukan. Dan andai mereka berkumpul untuk menyakitimu, mereka tidak akan mampu melakukannya kecuali sesuai dengan apa yang telah Allah tentukan untukmu."
(Riwayat at-Tirmizi)

Wassalam.

Bukan Tempat Tinggal

Assalamualaikum,

Tiada ertinya 'kembali' jika ia bukan yang abadi.

Wassalam.

Nun disana cita - cita kita
Ya akhirat namanya
Di dunia ini bukan tempat tinggal
Di sini hanya sebentar tidak kekal

Betulkan niat dari sekarang
Tukar sikap kita yang merugikan
Qur'an dan sunnah jadikan panduan
Agar esok kita tidak kekesalan

Biar susah sedikit kerana Tuhan
Untuk menghindar kesusahan yang besar
Yang tidak sanggup ditanggung badan
Ambillah iktibar kalau mahu sedap

Disana tiada taulan yang membela
Amal ibadah itulah pembela kita
Ayuh bersegaralah membuat kebajikan
Jangan dilalaikan oleh nafsu dan syaitan

Pangkat dan harta tidak akan kekal
Bahkan apa yang ada akan ditinggal
Hidup di dunia hanya sementara
Buatlah persiapan untuk ke sana

Ayuh bersegeralah menuju Alloh
Taatilah Dia minta ampun pada-Nya
Mati bila - bila masa boleh tiba
Jangan sampai kita tidak bersedia

Biar susah sedikit kerana Tuhan
Untuk menghindar kesusahan yang besar
Yang tidak sanggup ditanggung badan
Ambillah iktibar kalau mahu sedap

Nun disana cita - cita kita
Ya akhirat namanya
Di dunia ini bukan tempat tinggal
Di sini hanya sebentar tidak kekal
(Nun Di Sana, Rabbani)

Monday, December 13, 2010

About Changes

Assalamualaikum,

Change.
Changes happen every second. There is nothing we can do to stop it from happening. When a change happen, we need to sit down and breathe... take deep breaths; oxygen help in thinking. Then, we must learn to accept that the change happened whether we like it or not. Live with it.

Yes, everything changes.
People change. Nothing stays the same. To demand the other way is ridiculous. To be sad and frustrated is even more ridiculous.

We can't fleet away from earth just because we didn't like the changes.
We can't ignore or throw away people just because they change.
We can't quit loving just because we hate the change.

Life is so simple that we shouldn't be bothered more than we should.

Wassalam.

Thursday, December 9, 2010

1432H

Assalamualaikum,

Azam tahun baru 1432H:
Mencintai ALLAH...
InshaAllah...

Wassalam.

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Footsteps

"Some footsteps are not required.
Some presence is not worth to remember.
Every day is a gift.
If you can't make it special, don't ruin the surprises."

Assalamualaikum,

If restriction order is as simple and as easy as spelling it correctly, I know I have a list. It's not that I have completely throw away people in this list from my life. I am trying to keep the what-so-ever significant bonding between us.

Wassalam.

Friday, November 26, 2010

Anak

Assalamualaikum,

Seronok tengok wanita-wanita mengandung sekelian. Tumpang excited jugak tunggu hari bersalin kawan-kawan. Rasa sejuk hati dan seronok bila kawan-kawan cerita pasal pregnancy... bertambah-tambah lagi bila tengok gambar babies yang montel dan comel.

Orang upload gambar anak, aku pun upload jugak gambar anak... tapi anak orang lain la.
Orang sibuk shopping baju anak-anak, aku pun sibuk shopping gak... tapi untuk anak orang lain jugak.
Kereta orang lain ada mainan anak-anak, kereta aku pun [bakal] ada mainan anak-anak... tapi untuk anak orang lain lagi...
Orang lain beli socks, mittens, baby shoes untuk anak, aku pun sibuk beli jugak... tapi untuk gantung dalam kereta!

^____^ Hehehe~

Nota Kaki: Hasilan gambar terbaik dan yang paling menggembirakan aku bila pegang kamera adalah gambar anak-anak yang pelbagai ekspresi. Boleh jadi penawar hati yang lara.

Wassalam.

Thursday, November 25, 2010

A New Day...


Assalamualaikum,

While listening to Celine Dion's A New Day Has Come, I suddenly feel so determine to start a new life. I just want to move on and never going to turn back... ever again. I refuse to allow the same thing to break me over and over again. It's time to end these entire nuisances.

"Let the rain come down and wash away my tears
Let it fill my soul and drown my fears
Let it shatter the walls for a new sun
A new day has come
Where it was dark now there's light
Where there was pain now there's joy
Where there was weakness, I found my strength."

A new day has come.
It has to... it must...
InshaAllah.

Wassalam.





A new day has come…

I was waiting for so long
For a miracle to come
Everyone told me to be strong
Hold on and don't shed a tear

Through the darkness and good times
I knew I'd make it through
And the world thought I had it all
But I was waiting for you

Hush, love

I see a light in the sky
Oh, it's almost blinding me
I can't believe
I've been touched by an angel with love
Let the rain come down and wash away my tears
Let it fill my soul and drown my fears
Let it shatter the walls for a new sun
A new day has...come

Where it was dark now there's light
Where there was pain now there's joy
Where there was weakness, I found my strength
All in the eyes of a boy

Hush, love

I see a light in the sky
Oh, it's almost blinding me
I can't believe
I've been touched by an angel with love
Let the rain come down and wash away my tears
Let it fill my soul and drown my fears
Let it shatter the walls for a new, new sun
A new day has...come

A new day has...come
Ohhh, a light... Ooh

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Turn to Him


"I'm so tired but I can't sleep
Standin' on the edge of something much too deep
It's funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside, but we can't be heard"

Assalamualaikum,

If you need a listener, the best listener is Allah. Tell Him all you need to tell.
The Holy Quran is His words, listen to Him.
Solah on the other hand, is the way to communicate with Him.
Pray to Him.
Wassalam.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Salam Aidiladha


Assalamualaikum,

Salam Aidiladha.
Memetik kata-kata dari Majalah Solusi; marilah 'sembelih' kecintaan terhadap dunia.
Marilah kita hayati erti sebenar 'pengorbanan'.

Dalam perjalanan ke ofis pagi tadi, terdengar satu respons pendengar terhadap topik di Hot FM. Ceritanya, keluarga pendengar tersebut tak suka dengan pilihan hatinya. Sebagai 'pengorbanan' untuk cinta tersebut, pendengar ni tetap meneruskan perhubungan cinta tersebut dan buat tak tahu je dengan pendapat keluarganya. Penutupnya dia dengan bangga berkongsi, selepas 4 tahun akhirnya keluarganya terima juga pilihan hati tersebut.

Begitu definisi 'pengorbanan' kita.
Melukakan hati keluarga demi seseorang yang bukan sesiapa - pun boleh mengaku sebagai 'pengorbanan' bersempena Aidiladha.

Semoga Allah merahmati umat Islam sekelian dengan kecintaan terhadapNya yang berterusan.
Ameen.
Sebagai penutup dan peringatan terhadap diri sendiri, kenangilah kisah korban putera Nabi Adam Habil dan Qabil serta kerelaan Nabi Ibrahim mengorbankan puteranya Ismail.

Di manakah kita di dalam kisah yang keduanya?
Semoga Allah meletakkan kita di dalam golongan yang tidak rugi.

Wassalam.

Sunday, November 7, 2010

In the Oven

Assalamualaikum,

Hurt.
What else can I say about it?
Being hurt?
I have nothing to say about it.
Hurting.
Someone always feel something.
Someone not yet do the thinking.
Amazing.
Some think more.
Some think less.
Some never think.
A common sense for a person.
A life lesson for another.
Not even close to other's thought.
What a disappointment!
Don't you have brain; I'd really want to ask.
But that would sound harsh.
Being harsh would make us equal.
So have your part of the cake.
I have plenty in the oven.
You are what you eat.
I am what I cooked.
A pinch of salt.
A tablespoon of sugar.
A generous amount of everything.
Chances are all we have.
It ticks.
Tick tock tick tock.
Don't miss it.

Wassalam.

Friday, November 5, 2010

Yang Bernama Cinta

Assalamualaikum,

This is something I found during my student years and when love was saturated in the air. The English version was actually presented in Joseph's English class.


Yang Bernama Cinta

Adakah tapak tanganmu berkeringat, hatimu
berdebar kencang dan suaramu tersekat di
dadamu?
Itu bukan Cinta, itu SUKA.

Adakah kamu tidak dapat melepaskan pandangan
mata darinya?
Itu bukan Cinta, itu NAFSU.

Adakah kamu menginginkannya kerana kamu tahu
ia ada di sana?
Itu bukan Cinta, itu KESEPIAN.

Adakah kamu mencintainya kerana itulah yang
diinginkan semua orang?
Itu bukan Cinta, itu KESETIAAN.

Adakah kamu tetap mengatakan kamu
menyintainya kerana kamu tidak ingin melukai
hatinya?
Itu bukan Cinta, itu BELAS KASIHAN.

Adakah kamu menjadi miliknya kerana pandangan
matanya membuat hatimu melompat?
Itu bukan Cinta, itu TERGILA-GILA.

Adakah kamu memaafkan kesalahannya kerana
kamu mengambil berat tentangnya?
Itu bukan Cinta, itu PERSAHABATAN.

Adakah kamu mengatakan padanya bahawa
setiap hari hanya dia yang kamu fikirkan?
Itu bukan Cinta, itu DUSTA.

Adakah kamu rela memberikan semua perkara
yang kamu senangi untuk kepentingan dirinya?
Itu bukan Cinta, itu KEMURAHAN HATI.

Tetapi

Adakah kamu tetap bertahan kerana campuran
antara kesakitan dan kegembiraan yang
membutakan dan tak terfahami ... menarikmu
mendekati dan tetap bersamanya?
ITULAH CINTA.

Apakah kamu menerima kesalahannya kerna itu
bahagian dirinya dan siapa dirinya?
Jika demikian, ITULAH CINTA.

Adakah kamu tertarik dengan orang lain tapi setia
dengannya tanpa penyesalan?
Jika demikian, ITULAH CINTA.

Adakah kamu menangis kerana kesakitannya
walaupun saat itu dia kuat?
ITULAH CINTA.

Adakah hatimu sakit dan hancur ketika dia
bersedih?
ITULAH CINTA.

Adakah hatimu gembira ketika dia berbahagia?
ITULAH CINTA.

Adakah matanya melihat hatimu dan menyentuh
jiwamu begitu mendalam sehingga menusuk?
Yang demikian itulah namanya CINTA.


I can't say which part is true and which is not. Ask yourself.

Wassalam.

Friday, October 29, 2010

A Message

Assalamualaikum,

Note: This entry was inspired by a friend. Thank you, darling!

"My life is my message".
Gandhi got that right.

Yes, life is a message.
Life is never about what people expect you to be, it's not about what other people want... Life is about us and the decision we made.
‘Life’ is our essence of existence.

I’m not a rule-breaker, thus I am fulfilling my essence of existence. We all do.
We all breathe and survive and die fulfilling this one destiny.
That is to worship Him.
To the tiniest existence of us and the whole universe, life is meaningless without Him.
Life is Him.

That’s my message.
Hidup ini sekadar mencari mati yang sempurna.

Wassalam.

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Forgetfulness is a Blessing

Assalamualaikum,

One of the keys to happiness is a bad memory.
-- Rita Mae Brown

Happiness is good health and a bad memory.
-- Ingrid Bergman


I couldn't agree more on the statements.
Forgetfulness, if looked from a different corner is a blessing. It will become handy for unwanted memories.

If you can't remember it, you can't be sad about it.
If you can't remember why it made you sad, you'll move on.
Apparently, it will fade away as you forgetting it...

Wassalam.

Monday, October 18, 2010

Ouch!

Assalamualaikum,
Ouch.
A paper cut
deep into my heart.

"A paper cut" is understatement. Paper cuts to be precise. But I guess I never learn my lesson. I keep on letting myself to experience the paper cut. I think this is similar to extreme sports. Jumping from high place, bone-breaking activities, burning-the-skin hobbies, stuff that scared the insurance agencies or make your beneficiary rich. More than half human being involve in this kind of sports. A simple calculation fact from my mind :p

And I, I only get few paper cuts on my heart.
Wassalam.

Thursday, October 14, 2010

Japanese Wedding Showcase

Assalamualaikum,

I've completed my Bridal Fair 2010 - Japanese Wedding Showcase album! (More pictures in my Facebook album) It was a great experience to attend such event. It was my first fashion show, so I don't really know where should I stand or what should I capture. Alhamdulillah, the pictures turn out great. With a basic gear, I did not expect much but I am happy to see what I manage to captured.

My favorite would be the yellow wedding dress which was transform from a traditional wedding dress. They actually did it on the stage. The models for that particular wedding dress played their role well and brought out the romantic mood. The way he stares at her was like he is so proud of marrying her and there was so much love between them.

Okay.
I am all excited about this wedding thing (^_____^)
I love Satomi Kobayashi's message. I could not recall it exactly, but her message remind me of the reason why I love wedding so much. For her, it's more than just a business or a career; it's her passion. I agree with her, women are most gorgeous on their wedding day. Being able to 'assist' in making the dream come true is a satisfaction. At the end of the day, it's more than just dress, hair and make-up... It's a passion, a dream and love.

Wassalam.

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

The Why That You Wonder

Assalamualaikum,

This entry is a response to a question asked by a friend to another friend of mine. He wonder why I look different ('different' is not exact word) after the unfortunate event of my relationship (will be referred to as 'unfortunate event' later). Since I did plan to write something similar to that wonder, only nothing related to me, I think there's no harm to proceed with this idiotic babbling :p

It's nothing winning-him-back or revengeful situation. I am not Elle Woods (Legally Blonde) or Putri Farhana (Gol & Gincu). But yes, I can adore Elle Woods and Putri Farhana in girls after their unfortunate event. Fight for your love and fight as a beauty. Puffy eyes, bad hair day, mismatch style? Ugh, no! So not happening (^____^)

It's nothing big.
It's just that I have extras to pamper myself. All the while, love, time, commitment and energy were spent to manage the event. With the occurrence of the unfortunate event, I have them back to myself. It's exactly like handling a project. Once it ends you'll have opportunities to utilize your time, skills and resources. The same goes to me. Love, time, commitment and energy are not to be wasted. Why not use them wisely to highlight what I am missing in life?

So I did.
I'm going to love myself more than anyone else.
Time, commitment and energy -- I'm going to spend these for a better me, a better life and to those who really sincerely needs me and care about me. As far as I know, these kind of people always want me to live my life the fullest. Not that they would deceive the whining me, but I'd say this is how I respect their love -- for accepting me during my worst condition, for holding my hand and guiding me home, for being a good listener to stupid issues of my life and for seeing me as me.

In addition, a beautiful girl in my mirror makes me bounce higher and she actually is a good remedy that mends a broken heart :p Don't you think so? I am not sure if 'different' gets any closer to 'beautiful', I don't really care. What matters now is what I see in me.

Wassalam.

Monday, October 4, 2010

Kepada Kamu

Assalamualaikum,

Kamu,

Aku jatuh cinta kepadamu bukan kerana siapa kamu.
Bukan kerana apa yang kamu miliki.
Bukan kerana apa yang telah kamu capai dalam kehidupanmu.
Bukan kerana kata-kata manis yang kamu ucapkan kepadaku.
Bukan juga kerana janji manis yang kamu taburkan.

Cintaku kerana cintamu kepada Allah.
Aku jatuh cinta ketika mendengar kata-katamu yang merendahkan diri di hadapan Allah.
Aku mahu mencintaimu apabila kau serahkan cintamu kepada Allah.
Cintaku mengekori disetiap syukurmu atas rahmatNYA.
Cintaku meniti tapak-tapak cinta dan kerinduanmu terhadap Rasulullah.
Cintaku membara semarak obor perjuangan yang kamu titipkan untuk agama Allah.
Cintaku ikut menangisi taubatmu kepadaNYA.
Cintaku mengaminkan doa-doamu kehadratNYA.
Cintaku melaungkan sokongan atas puji-pujianmu terhadapNYA dan RasulNYA.

Aku cinta kepadamu kerana Allah.
Subhanallah...

Insha Allah, Allah akan hantarkan seseorang sepertimu kepadaku.
Amiin Ya Allah.

Wassalam.

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

So Much For a Happy Song

Assalamualaikum,

A moment ago, I just realized that my folder contains gigantic amount of sad songs. Sad love songs. Tragic sad songs. Ohmigosh.

What kind of person I was?
What kind of life I had?
My... my... my...
With this kind of collection, even Olay Total Effect that fight 7 signs of ageing could not help. Lines, lines, lines!

So I begin rummaging the entire collection for decent, motivational, happy songs that could enlighten my soul. Was that only 15% of the entire collection? Disastrous, ‘Aini! Among these 15%, lots of them actually a motivational breakup songs and a whole lot more which was not in that 15% is about love (between men and women). How pathetic is that.

We can't even write happy songs that does not include that kind of love. Sad... very, very sad.

I don't want to feel happy listening to fairy tales of love. Teetttt! Not even my story.
I don't want to be happy over bouncing back and moving on after a terrible breakup! Another teeettttt!
Ya ya ya. “It’s love that makes the world turn around”. Not just love between men and women.

I am starting my list of happy, motivational songs that have zero connection to love (between men and women). Please suggest me some songs. I would really appreciate that.

There are so many happy occurrences in life and love could be defined widely.Tell me about friendship, tell me about children, and tell me about this colorful world.

Wassalam.

When Blair Waldorf Cry

Assalamualaikum,

Blair cried during Dorota's wedding in Gossip Girl Season 3 episode last night. She broke off with tears when Cyrus announce the happy couple whom happen to be Blair and Chuck, to walk the aisle and accompany the bride and bridegroom as a part of the traditional Russian wedding.

Blair said that she and Chuck was not a happy couple. They should not bring bad luck to Dorota and Vanya. Blair hated the person she has become when she love Chuck -- too much. She hated it.

Watching Blair crying like that, letting Chuck go... stepping away from her life... admitting that the one love she wanted and fight for was not a happy story... it broke my heart. Blair is mean. But she's just another girl.

[Dorota said: "I don't need you to be a happy couple. I just need you to be happy". Yes. ]

Everybody has the right
to be happy.
to choose a path that makes them happy.
to give second chance, many time.
to forgive.
to forget.
to move on.
to stay and to longed.
to believe lies.
to tell lies.
to be hurt.
to hurt.
to hate and only hate.
to love and love still.
to live well.to be a better person.

Wassalam.

Monday, September 27, 2010

Erk Variables!

Assalamualaikum,

Explanation sometimes could make things more complicated. Silence on the other hand could suggest misunderstanding. Questions could lead to irritation and answers might hurt others.

If I were to give attention to all these, I'm so getting grey hairs on my next birthday!
Life contains variables, a lot of them swarm around me and you. It’s unfair but you have to accept it.I sound selfish, yes I am. But sometime being selfish is required so that none of us have to see a shrink or end up in a morgue.

Wassalam.






Thursday, September 23, 2010

Hanyut??


Assalamualaikum,

Pada mulanya lagu Hanyut ni macam ada jiwa yang sama dengan lagu Cuba. A guy is trying to say something and he keenly asking for attention. Tapi bila dah dengar hampir 13 ribu kali, Hanyut macam the opposite of Cuba, bila dengar lagi 100 kali, rasa macam Hanyut ni jawapan kepada Cuba (^____^)v

Tak pasti lelaki dalam lagu ni hanyut dalam erti kata macam mana.
Hanyut dalam erti kata tidak setiakah, hanyut dalam erti kata kurang ekspresif tentang perasaankah, hanyut dalam erti kata mengabaikan dengan urusan lainkah..

Anyway, seems like after series of hanyut, this guy finally realized what he's going to miss or what he already lost. Dah insaf lah kot. [A perfect song for a guy like this is "I Learnt from the Best" by Whitney Houston]

Dipendekkan cerita, lelaki dalam lagu ni boleh dimaafkan. Sekurang-kurangnya dia sedar dan mengakui semuanya berpunca daripada sesi hanyut tersebut dan dia minta maaf.

Tapi 1:
'Aini boleh maafkan lelaki macam ni. Tapi nak terima semula susah sikit kot. Bergantung kepada apakah sesi hanyutnya...

Tapi 2:
Lelaki dalam lagu ni ada pilihan.
You don't have to be a guy who sings this song.
You don't have to be a guy who has the possibility to sings this song.
You don't have to be a guy who may have to sings this song.


If you are in a situation to sing this, sing it from your sincere heart, once and only once.

My favorite part:
"Saat mata terpejam
Hanya kau ku terbayang
Menghapus semua segala rasa di jiwaku
Saat mata terbuka
Kamulah yang pertama
Tak mampu aku
Bayangkan
Hidup tanpa dirimu
"

Wassalam.

Hanyut
Faizal Tahir

Harus bagaimana lagi
Dan terus begini
Dengarkan aku
Lihat ke mataku

Cukup sudah kau menghukum
Salahku tetap salahku
Benarkan ku berbicara
Agar bisa pulih semua

Namun harus sampai bila
Kau kan diam seribu bahasa

Maafkanlah ku tak bisa hidup tanpa kamu
Fahamilah ku tak mampu terus tanpa kamu
Bagaimana ku nanti
Bila tiada mengganti
Yang ku ada hanya kamu saja

Saat mata terpejam
Hanya kau ku terbayang
Menghapus semua segala rasa di jiwaku

Saat mata terbuka
Kamulah yang pertama
Tak mampu aku
Bayangkan
Hidup tanpa dirimu

Maafkanlah ku tak bisa hidup tanpa kamu
Fahamilah ku tak mampu terus tanpa kamu
Bagaimana ku nanti
Bila tiada mengganti
Yang ku ada hanya kamu saja

Aku memang bersalah
Selalu saja mengabaikan mu
Dan tapi dah ku sedari
Segala perit kau lalui
Ku terlupa kau terluka

Dan memang selalu
Aku bersalah
Selalu saja mengabaikan mu
Meninggalkan mu
Dan tetapi itulah aku sedari
Segala perit yang kau lalui
Kerna diriku yang terus hanyut

Maafkanlah ku tak bisa hidup tanpa kamu
Bagaimana ku nanti
Bila tiada mengganti
Yang ku ada hanya kamu saja

Bagaimana ku nanti
Bila kau tak di sisi
Yang ku ada hanya kamu saja

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Shoes and More Shoes

Assalamualaikum,

I need a new pair of high heels.
Nothing is wrong with my current high heels.
Oh one pair needs to see the cobbler ASAP and I keep forgetting that.
I'm wearing my break-up high heels most of the time now and that feels quite wrong.
Nothing is wrong with my break-up high heels, too, other than being cream in color. So you can guess how many outfits match that.
[Aha! I have a break-up high heel. Ask me if you want to know :p]

Anyway, I think this is just me giving myself an excuse for more high heels. I plan to get myself a pair of gladiators or stilettos. The idea seems harmless but the moment I saw them, they look so dangerous. Hahaha. I think I'm going to skip that. On the other hand, a pair of flat is always decent. My main problem is to find cute, comfortable and practical flats. A cute but uncomfortable and unpractical flats or hideous but comfortable and practical flats won't do for me. (^___^)v

I used to have only one pair of footwear; be it flats or high heels. I couldn't understand why I need more than one pair of footwear. Now see how that fate twisted back on me, though not completely. I still manage to maintain a decent amount of footwear.

When your high heels starts biting, and no cobbler or cushion could fix that, it is time to find a new pair~
I wish a lot of things in life are as simple as that.

Wassalam.

Sunday, September 19, 2010

What's on the Net

Assalamualaikum,

I... found something on the net... a dedication... from year 2007...

I... didn't recall anything about it... it never appear in my search result before...

I... want to thank the writer... I do, but I can't... I shouldn't...

Thank you.

I cheerish those moment and I think you know that.
I wish it never appear in my search result.

Wassalam.

Saturday, September 18, 2010

Monochromatic Passion

Assalamualaikum,

There’s not much color to explain my latest passion. It is merely black and white and some grays. But yes, it’s more than enough to melt my heart.
I love colors.
But sometime colors overshadow the most important element in a picture. Monochrome on the other hand is able to bring out the authentic intended by a photographer in her picture.
I fall in love each snap.
Wassalam.

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Incident


Assalamualaikum,

I spent 30+ minutes hating and an equal time and a little bit more feeling bad after that.

When the incident struck me, I was carried away and what I felt seems normal at the moment. When you are in pain and the pain is at the center of your heart, the rational part of your brain turns off. The only things that matters is you and your feeling and your anger.

What reason do I have to hate?
Just because someone did something that is over my ego?
The answer was yes.

I am not going to let that be my sole reason to hate others.

When incidents like this happen, FAQ popped up:
1) Couldn't you put yourself in my shoes and see how much it hurts me?
2) Couldn't you guess how your act hurts?
3) Why would you did such thing that you know would hurt me?
4) What do you expect from me?
5) Don't you have some common sense in you?

The answers are NO and I DON'T CARE.
A very typical and normal human being.
Nothing big to anyone's concern.

I was one of the incident. I want to deny that, but I can't. I want to say that what I did was not as bad as the incident I encounter, but what's hurt still hurt.

Muhasabah is my word of the day.
It's a call from ALLAH, for me to repent and to forgive.
InsyaAllah... Alhamdulillah...

Wassalam.

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Klik Klik Pelita Syawal 1431H/2010

Assalamualaikum,

Antara misi utama Klik Klik Syawal kali ini ialah pelita!
Agak kecewa bila tiada pelita di pasang oleh jiran sebelah (yang menjadi satu-satunya harapan untuk pasang pelita) semasa aku pulang 2 minggu yang lalu. Tapi pada malam 1 Syawal, kelihatanlah pelita meliuk-lintuk menari bersama angin (^_^) Tidak lah banyak, cukup untuk aku yang amatur berlatih function yang berkenaan...

Agak susah pada mulanya untuk mendapat hasil yang terbaik. Kebanyakan gambar yang aku capture nampak tipikal dan tak ada soul. High ISO, low ISO, shutter speed this and that, metering (walaupun aku masih blur pasal ni), night mode, flash on, flash off. You name it. Lastly, I decided to switch to Monochrome. I have no expectation at all, I just thought maybe I could find something for my Monochrome Unlimited collection.

Alhamdulillah, it turn out great!
Jadi, berikut adalah hasil yang terbaik dan yang paling aku suka. Inilah yang Encik Ikmal selalu katakan lucky shot... I did nothing special. Ia adalah pelita dan angin. Everything is beautiful in its natural way. A shot like this couldn't be created, it happen.

Wassalam.