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Anticipating Breaking Dawn




The most anticipated wedding is just around the corner! I am frustrated for not being able to join Esme and Renee for the wedding preparation. And I am mostly sad to let Alice have all the fun by herself :p What can I say… life is a little bit too busy lately. I don’t even get the chance to follow on the progress of the movie – I don’t know the gossips or the hot stuff. I am the worst Twilighters. Sigh~

Finally, this is coming to an end – the good end. We are going to see what we’ve been imagining all this while – the wedding dress, the old comb, the wedding reception, Alice’s dress, Isle Esme… And with the confirmation of Rob and Kristen’s relationship, there are so much more to anticipate!

Writing this entry with Christina Perri’s “A Thousand Years” playing on the background, I have to say that Twilight is no longer about a charming vampire name Edward and a clumsy human girl named Bella falling in love with each other. It is funny when after all these years, my perception has changed. I too had fall in love with Edward. But the more I read, the more I watch, the more I see that it is all about a woman’s decision.

I have the same question as Edward had few years back – how can Bella be too sure about their relationship? How can she just made up her mind to trade off everything and go against the whole world? Love is not the answer, even for an Edward. We made stupid and reckless decision in the name love… but it is the why part that we can’t explain. We feel it and hope that others will eventually understand the feeling.

“I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more”

A woman’s heart is not something you can learn from books or psychology theories. She has her own mind. She doesn’t do stupid stuff unless she can reason it well.

“And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more”

Some of us are characters from books; some of us are just readers.

A Thousand Years
By Christina Perri

Heartbeats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow
One step closer
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more
Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this
One step closer
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more
And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more
One step closer
One step closer
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more
And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

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