I am usually better in January - happier, kinder, more positive, stronger, *crazier*. If you have any wish, difficult question to ask or tough confession to make, you should do it during January. The answer and result can be very different ;-)
February... February is a tough month after Mak passed away. It is not that I am sadder or more melancholy that I already am. It just... *tough*.
This coming 28 February would be the sixth year without Mak.
And I don't have suitable phrases that doesn't sound too sad to continue.
Cherish your parents while you still have the chance and time.