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I was driving (read: speeding) on Sultan Abdul Halim Muadzam Shah Bridge when Lee Seung Chul's "No One Else" blast through my radio. It was sunset; a very phenomenal and romantic sunset. The song fits beautifully into the mood. But this song is associated with one of Korea's best melodramatic movie, " More Than Blue " also known as "A Story Sadder Than Sadness". I cried my heart out; sampai migraine keesokkan harinya. The movie starts off like any typical melo love movie -- BFF/soul mates (Cream and K are orphans), terminal illness (cancer), noble idiocy (K keeps his feeling for Cream a secret because Cream’s biggest fear is to be left alone) and a hero too good to be truth. Walaupun tipikal, hati dah sedih dan menangis. It was so hard to watch the hero struggling with this feeling and dealing with his illness. The scene where K helps Cream to choose her wedding dress and walk her down the aisle was so heartbreaking. Then the second...

Bercanda :D Assalamualaikum, I was eating La Boheme's vanilla muffin with a glass of skim milk while watching a football match between Selangor and JDT; and my 6 years younger only sister was dealing with her nervousness -- she need to tell Abah that her boyfriend's family is coming to discuss about the future of their relationship. Hahahahaha. Lawak betul rasanya. I know I know. I shouldn't laugh. But I can't help myself. Bukanlah tak kesian. Hehehe. It is unusual for her to act like this. I mean she doesn’t always do what Abah wants nor that she doesn’t do what Abah forbid. Plus, she is the favorite daughter. I don't see any problem for them to start a conversation that finally leads to the news. It is not that their relationship is a secret anyway. What I don't like about all this, is the fact that she is edging towards what she does best -- letting other people to do the important job -- me, to drop the bomb. This would be a lot simpler t...

“Yes no yes no yes no? Red blue? Yes red, no blue? No red, yes no? In out, up down? Do don't, can can't? Choices sit on the shelf life New shoes in a shoe shop. If the in crowds are squeezing into a must-have shoe And the one pair left are too tiny for you Don't feel compelled into choosing them If you're really a size 9, buy that size. While everyone else Hobbles round with sore feet Your choices should feel comfortable Or they aren't your choices at all. Why limp when you can sprint?” ― David Baird, Fiesta of Happiness: Be True to Yourself Assalamualaikum, I recently feel like I might have misprogrammed some part of myself. I should have programmed myself with lesser: Love Compassion Care Understanding Empathy Sympathy Sensitivity Principle Discipline I should just be a normal human being; not a person with dreams of making world a better place and spreading love everywhere I go. Sometimes...

Assalamualaikum, I have known him my whole life. Through Malaysian politics of course. I was born in a family that talks politics over breakfast, lunch and dinner. A very colorful political views and beliefs if I can add more description to that. When I begin to make sense of the world, I refuse to see him from that view anymore. But if I need to, personally, he was the only rational and sane mind in *that* world. Sedihnya hati menerima berita kembalinya Tuan Guru Nik Haji Abdul Aziz Nik Mat kepada Yang Maha Pencipta. Pada mulanya rasa curiga dan marah - sejak TGNA dimasukkan ke hospital, acap kali benar 'kepergiannya' jadi bahan jenaka. Tambahan lagi bila aku baru sahaja 'like' berita kepulangan TGNA ke rumah. Tapi bila suami Kak Timi sahkan berita (he is someone in PAS) dan disahkan lagi dengan kebanjiran ucapan takziah di timeline Facebook... Speechless. Perginya menghadap Illahi pada malam Jumaat, disemadikan pada penghulu segala hari, Jumaat yan...

Assalamualaikum, Alhamdulillah, semalam (Ahad, 8 Februari 2014) berjaya menamatkan larian 12 km untuk Newton Challenge Penang 2015. Yeay~! Dah exceed target tahun ni - 10 km. Setakat ni paling jauh 8 km. Mencabar jugak nak habiskan baki 4 km. Masuk kilometer ke-9, jari kaki mula melecet dan segala sendi dan otot dah mula rasa terbeban. Abdomen pun mula cramp. Naik bukit pulak (dendam terbaru: Mount Erskine!). By 10th kilometer, tenaga memang dah takde. The hardest part? Mestilah the final 2 km. Mental kot! Tapi berlari bersama rakan-rakan Revert Sports Club (RSC) membawa banyak perbezaan. Walaupun bukan berlari dalam kumpulan atau one-to-one pacing, you know everyone is putting their effort to complete the run and that we will meet at the finishing line.  The route Kilometer 9 ke 10 tu yang bikin menangis... " YOU ARE YOUR LIMIT ". Begitu slogan Newton Challenge Penang 2015. Rasa puas hati dan hilang semua penat saat mendapat ucapan tahniah daripada pet...

Assalamualaikum, I am usually better in January - happier, kinder, more positive, stronger, *crazier*. If you have any wish, difficult question to ask or tough confession to make, you should do it during January. The answer and result can be very different ;-) February... February is a tough month after Mak passed away. It is not that I am sadder or more melancholy that I already am. It just... *tough*. This coming 28 February would be the sixth year without Mak. And I don't have suitable phrases that doesn't sound too sad to continue. Cherish your parents while you still have the chance and time. Wassalam.

Lagu tema: Keluarga Bahagia Bismillah... Assalamualaikum, Alhamdulillah, diberikan rezeki untuk menghadiri Simposium Baitul Muslim 1.0 anjuran Majlis Ilmu Pulau Pinang pada hari Ahad 1 Februari 2015. Hampir-hampir tidak hadir – banyak betul dilema dan drama – masalah kesihatan lah, tentatif lah… sebenarnya malas (isk isk isk). Perkara baik memang berliku-liku jalannya (ayat sedapkan hati). Bagus jugak ada good friend yang berulang kali bertanya sama  ada akan hadir atau tidak. Thanks, you know who you are ^______^ Banyak betul ilmu yang didapati. Sayang kesihatan tak mengizinkan tunggu untuk slot akhir – Forum “Baiti Jannati”. Masa tunggu waktu Isyak di rumah, sempat tuliskan sedikit sahaja buah tangan dari SBM1.0. Rasa perlu kongsi sesuatu sebelum tidur. Jadi, inilah dia. InshaAllah entri lain akan menyusul Buah tangan dari Simposium Baitul Muslim hari ni: 1) Nak pasangan yg baik, #1 kita mesti jadi baik dahulu. 2) Jadikan istikharah kebiasaan -- umpama p...