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 Photo: Bu-yong from Rooftop Prince I don't know which is worst - believing you are not pretty or to have nobody telling you that you are pretty. Fly FM Morning Rock Crew fixed a guy's problem last Friday morning - his girlfriend is addicted to KPop and obsessed with plastic surgery. I was wondering if she is really not pretty when Hafiz pokes her background bubble. She sobbed to the question before finally admitting that she had rough childhood. There was not much love and no one ever told her that she is pretty. So she is not necessarily lack in anything. I grew up believing I am fat and not pretty - I said [ shout ] to my radio. My cousins planted that idea in my mind. In my past, I wore L size garments; because that is the size I see myself through other people's eyes (There was one time when I chose a XXL t-shirt for a jamboree event). I actually believed that until early 20s. Then I started to gain my consciousness and confident bit by bit. I am not Mis...

 Photo from: http://i304.photobucket.com/albums/nn196/jannalynn23/fingerprick.jpg  Betrayal cuts deep; it leaves ugly scar that would never fade. Be-tra-yal: even the sound of it feels like paper cut. When the shoes were put on to my feet, I don't know how to walk it. I was petrified. The runaway vanished before my eyes. The shoes sank me deep into the darkness. I am the kind who has the what-I-will-do-if-it-happen-to-me list. Funny when it bumped into me, it knocks me down so hard to the ground; I can't stand up to fight back. I remain on the ground throughout the stages of grief. I finally tossed the shoes into the trash, but it is still there. The numbness, the pain, the hatred, I will always have the ugly scar. That is my story when I was betrayed by my partner in commitment. So when I received the grieving news from someone close to me, that she is betrayed by her husband, it hits my yet-to-heal ugly scar. I would not dare to put myself in her...

 Kredit foto: ILoveAllaah.com  Assalamualaikum, Api benci kamu marak. Setiap kewujudan kami ingin sekali membalasnya. Dengan darah dan dengan nyawa. Tapi api cinta kami kepada Baginda Rasulullah lebih membakar. Tapi keinginan Rasul kami andai Baginda masih di sisi kami lebih utama. Tapi keinginan kami mencontohi akhlak Rasul yang kami rindui ketika berhadapan dengan manusia seperti kamu lebih mendalam. Api cinta kami kepada Baginda Rasulullah Muhammad bin Abdullah lebih membakar. Itulah yang kamu tidak fahami dan itulah yang kamu geruni. Islam tidak mengajar kami untuk membenci, menghina dan menghasut. Tapi Islam melalui Rasul yang kami cintai mengajar kami untuk membalas kejahatan dengan kebaikan. Dan Islam melalui Rasul yang kami cintai mengajar kami erti dan nilai; meletakkan iman dalam kemarahan dan perjuangan. Justeru diam kami bukan kemenangan bagi kamu. Api yang kamu percikkan hanyalah kesusahan untuk kamu dihari kemudian. Api ya...

Assalamualaikum, Semakin menghampiri hari graduasi Madrasah Ramadhan. Terasa pendek sungguh Ramadhan kali ini - petanda semakin hampir dengan destinasi yang pasti. Ramadhan kali ini benar-benar mendidik, Alhamdulillah. Semoga didikan yang diterima kekal berbekas di hati umpama besi yang ditempa, Amiin Ya Allah. Pendidikan Ramadhan ini umpama ibadah Haji juga, dilihat selepas berlalu musimnya - terdapatkah kelangsungan atau umpama hujan yang mengikut angin. Ada hamba Allah yang pulang dari Haji tetapi hatinya tidak pernah kembali. Ada hamba Allah yang pergi Haji tapi hatinya tidak pernah pergi. Semoga hati kita semua hadir kepada Ramadhan yang 30 hari tetapi semangat Ramadhan itu tinggal menetap di dalam hati dan tidak pernah pergi. Amiin Ya Khaliq, kabulkanlah permintaan yang satu ini. Dikesempatan ruang yang sempit ini, diucapkan selamat menyambut Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Mohon maafkan salah silap dalam menulis dan mengutara pandangan. Ingatlah Allah di hari kemenan...

Assalamualaikum, Dah tiba di 10 hari terakhir Ramadhan 1433H. Sob sob! Bukanlah tidak gembira nak menyambut Hari Raya, tapi hati berat nak melepaskan Ramadhan. Teringat kata-kata arwah Tok Wan melihatkan kami berjimba riang saat menyambut Ramadhan yang kian berakhir. Kata beliau, patutnya kita berasa berat hati sebab bulan yang baik, yang penuh rahmat, penuh keampunan dan pelepasan dari api neraka bakal berakhir. Ada ulama yang menangis di 10 hari terakhir Ramadhan sebab tak sanggup nak berpisah dan risau kalau-kalau tak bertemu dengan Ramadhan seterusnya. I was still young at that time, tapi kata-kata arwah memang berkesan di hati. Pada mulanya sekadar cover line sebab tak mahu kena leter, but as I grew up and understand more what he meant, the feeling slowly building in me. Marilah sama-sama memperbanyakkan lagi amal di penghujung Ramadhan ini. Kalau main bolasepak, dah dikira sebagai masa kecederaan. This is your chance; win or lose? Ada peluang untuk 'go...

Insulting other people’s faith, religion, culture, race, and everything in your way will never make you any better. It makes you as bad as your insult. The moment you insult others thinking that you have the right to do so because you are better than them, you are actually downgrading yourself even lower than your insult. For me, this type of psychological war is cheap. You are getting nowhere. The ability to irate people is not recognized as skill. It is attitude problem. These kinds of people, they feed themselves with the response they get. They more irritating you are, the more excited they become. Before you know it, they get new things on you. Do not satisfy them by responding unwisely. Do not let them have you. Most importantly, do not be a monster to defeat another monster. It is not worth it.

Assalamualaikum, "Marhaban Ya Ramadhan", begitu hati mahu memulakan bicara. Tapi tiba-tiba hati terdetik, yakinkah bertemu dengan Ramadhan kali ini? Kemungkinannya esok atau lusa, tapi ajal pasti tiba tanpa dapat kita duga... Ya Allah, Dalam syukurku untuk usia yang Kau sisakan di penghujung Syaaban ini, kumohon kesempatan untuk bertemu dengan RamadhanMu. Semoga terlerai kerinduan ini. Ya Allah, Dalam syukurku untuk usia yang Kau sisakan untuk bertemu kembali dengan Ramadhan kali ini, kumohon kesihatan yang baik dan kemudahan untuk beribadah sebaik-baiknya... Semoga dapat kurebut rahmatMu, keampunanMu dan pembebasan daripada nerakaMu. Amiin, Ya Allah. Alhamdulillah. Selamat kembali wahai Ramadhan bulan kemuliaan. Selamat menjalani ibadah puasa kepada semua Muslimin dan Muslimat. Wassalam.