Thursday, December 22, 2011

Courageous

"Courage is the art of being the only one who knows you're scared to death." - Earl Wilson

I feel courageous today upon receiving the news of my grandmother's health condition. She is the mother I grew up with. So yes, that is the feeling.

Monday, December 19, 2011

Just Saying - Stardust

"You could search to the furthest reaches of the universe and never find anything more beautiful. So yes, I know that love is unconditional. But I also know that it can be unpredictable, unexpected, uncontrollable, unbearable and strangely easy to mistake for loathing, and... What I'm trying to say, Tristan is... I think I love you. Is this love, Tristan? I never imagined I'd know it for myself. My heart... It feels like my chest can barely contain it. Like it's trying to escape because it doesn't belong to me anymore. It belongs to you. And if you wanted it, I'd wish for nothing in exchange - no gifts. No goods. No demonstrations of devotion. Nothing but knowing you loved me too. Just your heart, in exchange for mine." ~ Yvaine, Stardust (2007)



I am reading Stardust... <3

Friday, December 16, 2011

No Need to Be Sad or Depress

Assalamualaikum,

On this peaceful Friday, I'd like to share a beautiful article by Yasmin Mogahed.

In denial stage, it is our nature to blame. We either blame ourselves or others - some would even blame Allah. But blame only makes us more miserable. And what's worse, it is like a huge wall between us and acceptance that would allow us to think clearly and see the light. I learnt this lesson from La Tahzan few years back during my denial stage. It was a wakeup call. Apa yang berlaku bukan kerana apa yang kita buat atau tidak buat. Jika itu yang telah tertulis dalam lembaran takdir kita, buat lah apa pun, nothing will change.

Allah doesn’t need any reason. Ini kerana sifat Allah yang harus. Harus bagi Allah melakukan atau meninggalkan sesuatu mengikut kehendak dan kudrat-Nya, yang langsung tidak dipengaruhi oleh sesiapapun. Allah bebas melakukan atau menjadikan sesuatu tanpa disebabkan oleh sesuatu peraturan atau tidak melakukannya.

"Dan Tuhanmu menciptakan apa yang dirancangkan berlakunya, dan Dialah juga yang memilih (satu-satu dari makhlukNya untuk sesuatu tugas atau keutamaan dan kemuliaan) tidaklah layak dan tidaklah berhak bagi sesiapapun memilih (selain dari pilihan Allah). Maha Suci Allah dan Maha Tinggilah keadaanNya dari apa yang mereka sekutukan denganNya. // Thy Lord does create and choose as He pleases: no choice have they (in the matter): Glory to Allah! and far is He above the partners they ascribe (to Him)!" (Al-Qasas: 68)

To all those who suffer from sadness or depression…
by Yasmin Mogahed
Please visit:
http://www.yasminmogahed.com

To all those suffering from sadness or depression, know that it isn’t your fault. It isn’t because you’re weak. It isn’t because you’re just not grateful enough. It isn’t because you’re just not religious enough. It isn’t because you don’t have enough faith. It isn’t because God is angry with you. To all the well-meaning people who tell you this, just smile. And know deep in your heart that the tests of God come in different forms to different people. And know that, by the help of God, every test can become a tool to get closer to Him. And that, verily, with hardship come ease–and like all things of this world–this too shall pass.

Wassalam.

Thursday, December 15, 2011

Just Saying 15-Dec-2011

Assalamualaikum,

Setiap hari mesti berazam untuk jadi lebih baik. Setiap hari mesti ada keinginan untuk hijrah diri ke arah yang lebih baik. Di samping tu, mesti juga berdoa semoga dari keinginan tu datangnya tekad yang ikhlas terhadap Allah. Semoga Allah buka jalan-jalan kebaikan untuk kita sertai dan semoga Allah kurniakan istiqamah di dalam kumpulan tersebut. Perubahan adalah sesuatu yang payah untuk dilakukan dan kita tidak boleh bertindak sendirian tanpa bantuan Allah. So have the desire NOW. You never know when you'll get the opportunity. Kita tak tahu setakat mana usia kita. Dan bila jalan hijrah itu tiba, ambillah.
Just saying.

Wassalam.

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

30 Days and Starts Counting!

Waiting for the Spring
by Mitsuo Aida

I felt that someone was looking at me.
I turned my wheelchair
And found a little flower blooming there.

I couldn’t do it, or
I didn’t do it.
I wonder which one?

If you spend all your time only thinking,
The sun will set.

A poem for my children.
It matters not the path you choose
Nor the way you walk it.
What matters is living that life to its fullest.


Assalamualaikum,

Today is exactly 30 days before my 28th birthday. That means I have 30 days left to cheer and to enjoy being 27 years young! Hahaha.

I always have this weird feeling about my birthday. The feeling of taking off from a high place and fly (or maybe just free fall!). No, it is not fear. It is more to excitement, I guess. It is like feeling rush of adrenaline through me.

All my life, I just want to move to the next birthday after another. Being old doesn't really bother me that much (until recently, still not that much though). I was very ambitious back then. In the world I want to be, being young means weak and age is power.

Reaching 28 in days, wow, that's quite a number. It is funny when in my ambitious world, I never picture myself being this age. It's always a fast forward vision where everything went well and I am old enough to have the world acknowledging my thoughts.

I think I am going to celebrate my 28th birthday with the most childish cake - Ben 10 maybe - with lot of candles and fun figures on it. Yes, I think I'll do that ^_____^

Wassalam.

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

Lesson





While we try to teach our children all about life,
Our children teach us what life is all about.
~Angela Schwindt

Assalamualaikum,

It was a weekend full of pictures and I personally adore these pictures of Hakimi and Syifa. I feel like both of them has grow up so much and are going to leave home soon... *Teary eyes* Hahaha. That is dramatic *wink* On the other hand, maybe I'm the one who's going to leave them growing up on their own... *sigh*

I feel grateful for my interest in kids’ photography. Kids are not my expertise but somehow photography helps me to deal with my fear. And I figure out that Edward is lovable and can have effect on people. Hehehe. Rather than just a hobby and madly running around capturing pictures, I am actually getting so much in return from the kids - Syifa and Hakimi and others. I thought I was teaching them to smile to laugh to act properly. But it is really them giving me lesson through the small lens. Precious life lesson.

Hakimi is a polite, timid and shy boy. There's no problem with him, except that he's not eating or talking that much. But Hakimi is my so far biggest iceberg in photography. The lens just doesn’t love him, I said to myself. He doesn’t know how to smile, I added. The truth is, I am being a typical adult - putting the blame on the kid rather than myself. It was always me; I don't have the patience and I always give up on him. Hakimi, on the other hand, did not give up with me - the fact crushes me over and over again. He always try harder to get into the picture just the way Mak Long want. And now look at his smile! If only I have invested more into being patience, I would not have missed these...

Without patience, we left our kids to grow up on their own. They're alone to explore and understand the world that we fail to explain. Each time we give up and quit, we are being unfair to them as they deserve the guidance, from us, the parents and adults. How would we feel if people give up on us on daily basis? That’s right - frustration. On top of everything, without patience, we are losing our moment with them - precious, growing up moment.

Hakimi was only 3 years old when we first met. The foundation of his personality was well taught by his mother (my sister in-law) over obstacles being a single mother. I believe that somehow Hakimi have his own idea of the world. I truly believe and hope Hakimi would grow up to be a very loving person. Syifa on the other hand, was born into and growing up with sugar and spice and everything nice. She has strong and colorful personality and a good taste in shoes (because Syifa only show interest in my shoes :p) I believe and hope Syifa would never lose any of her bouncy personality, with addition of kindness.

Because she is the first granddaughter, Syifa receives many attentions since the day she was born. The attention she receives built her confidence. This is clearly shows in her pictures. Or maybe having me taking her pictures made her confident. It's good to have well developed self-confidence. It could help her to climb any mountains. On the contrary, somewhere between the lines I need to ask myself: can love and attention given to her corrupt her in any way? She'll be fine, I assure myself. If and only if we educate her properly. What's wrong is wrong, what's right is right. She can't just get her way because she's adorable.

Looking at them, running around turning the house upside down, I ask myself: What could go wrong?

How will you remind your children to perform solah 5 times a day when you never complete yours? How will they send du'a for you if you never teach them to say du'a? How would they become a good servant if they don't have you as the role model? The best way to teach about compassion is by showing compassion, that is, to have compassion. When we shout, our children will shout, too. We can't raise happy children if we don't demonstrate happiness in our home. We could not expect our children to respect us if we never show our respect to them. If we never listen to them, they will never listen to anyone. In summary, you can't raise a good person if you yourself is not a good person. Parenting requires sincerity and sincerity is His Secret.

They are pure souls on earth. We were all once pure souls. But look what we have become? It is almost unbearable to let those tiny fingers and toes to grow up.

Have you ever love anybody unconditionally so much, that you would give up everything for them? 10 years ago I could not reason how or why a woman would give up opportunities and career just to commit to her family. Few years after that, I think I can consider letting go my dreams, maybe after some time, and then commit to my family. But with Hakimi and Syifa (and Sumayyah), I am certain that I can and I will let go everything for a family. I believe this must be the feeling every parent have. This is the most important lesson I learn.

Wassalam.


Monday, December 12, 2011

Untuk Sahabat Saya



Mencari Redha

Assalamualaikum,

"Hadapilah ujian hidup dengan mencari maksud di sebalik takdir-takdir Allah. Dengarlah suara tarbiah dan dakwah yang berbisik setiap kali kita diuji. Kebaikan dan keburukan hanya ada pada penilaian insan, tetapi di sisi Allah, apa yang ditakdirkan-Nya pasti satu kebaikan".
- Prakata; Nota Hati Seorang Lelaki, Ustaz Pahrol Mohamad Juoi.

Tidak ada pembuka bicara yang lebih tepat selain kata-kata di atas. Hadirnya mendahului ujian, seakan persediaan dan motivasi. Satu kenyataan yang tidak dapat dinafikan justeru memandu diri ke arah ketenangan hati. Takdir dan ujian adalah 'tema' bulan Disember. Cahaya di hujung terowong mungkin. Padahal takdir dan ujian wujud seiring usia selagi bernyawa sebelum ajal tiba. Penutup kepada tahun yang panjang sekaligus bekalan ilmu untuk tahun seterusnya.

Perjalan pendek dari Pulau Pinang ke Parit Buntar amat membuka minda. Pelajarannya mungkin tidak akan didapati walaupun dalam perjalan seribu batu kalau bukan kerana izin Allah. Banyak yang difikirkan dan banyak yang ingin diperkatakan. Terlalu banyak emosi yang ingin digambarkan. Terlalu banyak 'keadilan' yang ingin dituntut. Jelasnya, semua itu sekadar permainan perasaan. Kedegilan hati. Jadi ini adalah yang terbaik.

Hakikatnya, aku sedang mencari redha.
Dan ini adalah catatan ringkas pencarian tersebut...

Kita semua sekadar memenuhi takdir. Tidak ada yang bersalah. Tidak ada apa yang salah. Tidak ada sebarang penyesalan. Jadi kemaafan tidak perlu. Biasalah jika ada yang tercalar dan terluka. Yang luka pasti sembuh, yang sakit pasti ada penawarnya. Allah itu Maha Lemah Lembut dan Maha Pengasih... Redha itu adalah penawarnya. Pujuklah hati untuk redha. Mintalah kepada Allah, semoga dilembutkan hati yang satu itu untuk melihat redha. Bila redha itu ditemui, pulihlah semuanya.

Rasulullah bersabda: "Amat menarik hati keadaan orang beriman, semua pekerjaannya baik belaka, dan itu ada hanya pada orang beriman: Jika memperoleh kesenangan, dia bersyukur. Dan itu memberikannya kebaikan (pahala). Jika ditimpa bahaya (kesusahan), dia sabar dan itu juga memberikannya kebaikan”. Aku mahu jadi orang begini.
Jangan menangisi takdir yang tidak menyebelahi kita. Sebaliknya senyumlah; senyuman yang paling manis adalah senyuman ketika menerima ujian daripada Allah. Penuhilah takdir tersebut dan hiduplah memenuhi takdir yang seterusnya. Pilihlah jalan untuk takdir yang lebih baik dan memberi kebaikan kepada semua. Mati itu pasti, tapi kita boleh memilih untuk mati dalam iman atau tidak... Rahmat Allah itu Maha Luas. La tahzan.

Semua ini tidak mudah untuk dilakukan. Amat payah. Kerana itu percaya kepada Allah dan Zat-zatNya adalah sangat penting. Tidak ada kekuatan selain kekuatan anugerahNya yang mampu membantu dalam perjalanan mencari redha. Redha itu dicari dengan mencari Allah. Redha itu ditemui dengan menghayati ujianNya dan melihat hikmahNya. Ustaz Pahrol Mohamad Juoi menulis mengenai hikmah dalam entri Mencari Ketenangan Hati:

"Hikmah adalah sesuatu yang tersirat di sebalik yang tersurat. Hikmah dikurniakan sebagai hadiah paling besar dengan satu ujian. Hikmah hanya dapat ditempa oleh “mehnah” – didikan langsung daripada Allah melalui ujian-ujian-Nya. Rasulullah s.a.w. bersabda, “perumpamaan orang yang beriman apabila ditimpa ujian, bagai besi yang dimasukkan ke dalam api, lalu hilanglah karatnya (tahi besi) dan tinggallah yang baik sahaja!”
Jika tidak diuji, bagaimana hamba yang taat itu hendak mendapat pahala sabar, syukur, reda, pemaaf, qanaah daripada Tuhan? Maka dengan ujian bentuk inilah ada di kalangan para rasul ditingkatkan kepada darjat Ulul Azmi – yakni mereka yang paling gigih, sabar dan berani menanggung ujian. Ringkasnya, hikmah adalah kurnia termahal di sebalik ujian buat golongan para nabi, siddiqin, syuhada dan solihin ialah mereka yang sentiasa diuji".

"Pendek kata, bagi orang beriman, ujian bukanlah sesuatu yang negatif kerana Allah sentiasa mempunyai maksud-maksud yang baik di sebaliknya. Malah dalam keadaan berdosa sekalipun, ujian didatangkan-Nya sebagai satu pengampunan. Manakala dalam keadaan taat, ujian didatangkan untuk meningkatkan darjat. Justeru, telah sering para muqarrabin (orang yang hampir dengan Allah) tentang hikmah ujian dengan berkata: “Allah melapangkan bagi mu supaya engkau tidak selalu dalam kesempitan dan Allah menyempitkan bagi mu supaya engkau tidak hanyut dalam kelapangan, dan Allah melepaskan engkau dari keduanya, supaya engkau tidak bergantung kepada sesuatu selain Allah."

Nota kepada hati-hati yang juga mencari redha (Aku bukanlah hebat, jauh daripada sempurna. Ambillah mana yang baik): Bersabarlah – Sabar itu susah, tapi pulangannya menguntungkan. Sabar asas yang penting. Kalau tidak sabar, pasti terus melatah. Bila kita dalam perjalan menuju ke satu tempat yang kita tidak biasa, sudah tentu ada peta, ada guidelines untuk ke sana. Perlu juga perhatikan landmark, tanda arah dan papan tanda. Kalau memandu dengan laju, pasti ada yang terlepas pandang. Perlahan sedikit - di sinilah peranan sabar. Supaya dapat melihat dengan lebih jelas. Tarik nafas dahulu.



Semoga Allah anugerahkan redha...

*** Isnin, 12 Disember 2011, jam 3:18 petang, membaca Berdamailah Dengan Takdir oleh Ustaz Pahrol Mohamad Juoi. Kebetulan yang mengharukan... Memang takdir dan ujian adalah 'tema' bulan Disember~



Wassalam

Takdir
by Opick feat. Melly Goeslow

Dihempas gelombang dilemparkan angin
Sekisah ku bersedih ku bahagia
Di indah dunia yang berakhir sunyi
Langkah kaki di dalam rencana-Nya

Semua berjalan dalam kehendak-Nya
Nafas hidup cinta dan segalanya

Dan tertakdir menjalani segala kehendak-Mu, Ya Robbi
Ku berserah ku berpasrah hanya pada-Mu, Ya Robbi
Dan tertakdir menjalani segala kehendak-Mu Ya Robbi
Ku berserah ku berpasrah hanya pada-Mu, Ya Robbi

Bila mungkin ada luka coba tersenyumlah
Bila mungkin tawa coba bersabarlah
Karena air mata tak abadi
Akan hilang dan berganti (hilang kan berganti)

Bila mungkin hidup hampa dirasa
Mungkinkan hati merindukan Dia
Karena hanya dengan-Nya hati tenang
Damai jiwa dan raga

Dan tertakdir menjalani segala kehendak-Mu, Ya Robbi
Ku berserah ku berpasrah hanya pada-Mu, Ya Robbi
Dan tertakdir menjalani segala kehendak-Mu, Ya Robbi
Ku berserah ku berpasrah hanya pada-Mu, Ya Robbi
Hanya pada-Mu, Ya Robbi

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Yang Dinamakan Ujian

Assalamualaikum,

Ujian dalam hidup itu bagus. Ia mengajar kita menjadi tabah. Ia menjadi kayu pengukur kepada ketabahan yang mungkin kita miliki. Umpama langit malam yang gelap, menyerlahkan bintang-bintang yang bergemerlapan. Allah tidak pernah berbohong, kita tidak akan diuji melebihi apa yang kita mampu. Jadi bertahanlah, dan carilah kekuatan dari kata-kataNya. Islam tidak pernah mendidik umatnya untuk berputus asa. Islam juga tidak pernah mendidik umatnya untuk keterlaluan dalam melayan kesedihan. Semua yang berlaku ada hikmahnya. Mintalah pada Allah, semoga kita dapat melihat hikmah kebijaksanaanNya.

Wassalam.

Just Saying 6-Dec-2011

The ultimate test in moving on is when the moment you decide to do so, what you're letting go suddenly come flying to you. Just saying.

Breaking Dawn Part 1 - Movie Review

I watched it twice and am ready for the third :p
I'd like to start this review with Edward's wedding toast:

"It's an extraordinary thing to meet someone who you can bare your soul to and accept you for what you are. I've been waiting, for what seems like a very long time, to get beyond what I am. With Bella I feel like I can finally begin. So I'd like to propose a toast to my beautiful bride. No measure of time with you will be long enough. But let's start with forever."

Exactly. Zero reason not to like Edward <3

The pre-wedding was cut short. Very, very short. No Mercedes S600 Guard. No breaking the news to Charlie and Renee, so no changing color Charlie and motherly advice from Renee. But the mood is there. Charlie clearly doesn't happy with the wedding and Renee on the contrary is very happy about it. Bella is nervous and Edward is anxious. But I am grateful to see Alice having fun planning the wedding. In another words, bossing everybody. Love the scene where Alice shout: "Does no one have vision?!". Hahahaha. Very cute, darling. It is sweet to see Rosalie getting involved with the wedding. She is after all not offended by Bella's choice of groom, just her blatant lack of respect for mortality.

Now, let’s talk wedding.
We have waited for years to see Bella walk down that aisle.

I've been waiting for a year for this, so I'm going to shout it out loud. I LOVE THE WEDDING DRESS and the wedding shoes! The wedding dress is magnificent, the kind that only exist in fiction. Made out of crepe satin and French Chantilly lace, 152 buttons line the back of Bella's dress, with 17 additional buttons on each sleeve. And the shoes are the kind Alice would buy and Edward could afford for his lovely bride. I am serious about the price - the Manolo Blahnik Swan Pumps. The wedding dress is the surprise element for Breaking Dawn and I really appreciated the way it was introduced. When we first saw Bella, the dress looks simple. Just like her. But as she walked down the aisle and the camera close up to the back of the dress, I gasped with awe. And then to the sleeves and the rest of the dress... Lovely piece! If I ever got the chance to wear a wedding dress, I'd want to wear this.

I was anxious for this part of Breaking Dawn, but they pull it through. It's not perfect, but it is acceptable and I love it. Though they did not make Alice as the bridesmaid! The most important thing is it did have the "my world, which had been upside down for so long now, seemed to settle into its proper position" feeling. Rosalie played Pachelbel’s Canon in the book, but Bill Condon made Bella walked with Turning Page in the background. Lovely! And I like Bella's expression when she finally found Edward - "suddenly, it was only the pressure of Charlie’s hand on mine that kept me from sprinting headlong down the aisle". Another scene to love is Edward and Bella's moment on the altar as they share their first kiss as husband and wife. As Flightless Bird, American Mouth played on the background, the guesses disappeared leaving Edward and Bella alone in their world. You must recognize the scene from Twilight's prom. When you are with the one person you want to be, the world doesn't exist anymore. Life is content.

The first time I watched Breaking Dawn, I was not fond with the wedding speech. But as Edward said, what's a wedding without some family drama? Emmet's speech would sound ridiculous for non-reader, but of course I laughed to that. Hahaha. I am not sure how Jessica got to have her part in the speech, but she totally lost her mind :P Renee's lullaby was so Renee and it's something I could expected in real life. Charlie's speech was hilarious. He definitely illustrates his point very well! Hahaha. Love Alice's speech - it's a heads up for Breaking Dawn Part 2! Loving every words from Esme and I was deeply touched by that. That was so sweet.

Now, let's add up some Jacob.
Hot, hot, hot!
For a long lost guy who spends most of his time 4-legged, he sure looks perfect. Sigh. Who can forget his expression every time he sees Bella? He had that look from New Moon [the scene where he ran cheerfully towards Bella] What's not to love about it.. except that he is Jacob, of course. The scene was perfect. It is heart crushing to have your best friend saying goodbye to you as if you're soon to be dead to him. I nearly cry to the sound of Bella's heart beat. You see, that is what Edward and Jacob been fighting for in the Saga - to keep her heart beating.

There's not much to watch during the honeymoon - thank you Lord! I believe everyone notice/know that the first time was clearly cut and we only got to see what's in Bella's mind the next morning. Just to let you know, Bella's dream and the second time were cut without even a glimpse here in Malaysia - if you don't know what I mean, please go and get the book. So that leaves the honeymoon with their normal activities :P Isle Esme was wonderful, almost similar to what I imagine.
Bella's human time was fun to watch.
The beach scene was not convincing.
Edward and Bella playing chess scene was hilarious! Hahaha. It's something Jacob [suppose to] said in the book, but the dialogue did not make it into the movie ;)
Shocking Edward was weird... Sigh. Robert, Robert, Robert... What were you thinking, honey~

It was interesting to see the Saga from Jacob's perspective. All the while we never really understand what's happening inside his mind. We love the pack, but we never really listen to their side of the story. It was fascinating to see how their minds were connected and to see how they were compelled to obey Sam's order. I agree with you Jacob, to have no privacy for your mind is suck. I feel terribly sad for Leah. It would be a never ending nightmare to share thoughts with your ex, especially when he is happy with the girl he imprinted on: "being any kind of happy is better than being miserable about someone you can't have". That's an ouch. The imprinting scene was the best illustration from Book of Jacob. I am forever curious about the imprinting stuff, what it feels like, what ties a person to another person: "It's like, gravity. Your whole center shifts. Suddenly it's not the earth holding you here. You would do anything, be anything she needs. A friend, a brother, a protector".

Pregnant Bella really, really, really looked sick. It's like all her health was suck away from her - literally. I like how they directed the scene where Jacob arrives at Cullen's mansion to find Bella pregnant. The angst in Jacob, the ever so protective Rosalie, the helplessness in Edward, Alice, Jasper, Emmet, Esme and Carlisle - were all well illustrated into the movie. Though, I feel like Edward and Jacob's conversation was a bit tasteless. Edward did not look as devastated as pictured by Jacob in the book: "This was the face a man would have if he were burning at the stake". Just saying. I am also surprise the "Bella can have puppies if she want" dialogue did not make it. That would make a huge statement. Hahaha.

There are two more scenes that did not survive for Malaysia: 1) Rosalie helping Bella bathing and Edward saw bruises on Bella's back, and 2) the birth of Renesmee - I've checked, the birth scene was similar to the book. The absence of the birth scene is my major disappointment for Breaking Dawn. I know the scene would not survive that much, but I never expected that the frames would jump that far. They could have made it more reasonable. Sigh! If I am unhappy about it, the non readers must have felt worse. Luckily, Bella's transformation was breathtaking. Instead of making the audiences feel the agony from Bella's perspective, they made the transformation beautiful. From the dead Bella to the 'living' Bella. The inclusion of Bella's memory brings mix of emotions, bittersweet kind of feeling and to ends it with the image of young Charlie and Renee holding baby Bella mark a significant start. Forever has begun.

From Twilight until Breaking Dawn Part 1, I see changes in Edward. Good changes. Fans did not like it very much, because he is suppose to stays the same forever. But I like it. Change is good. Despite the fact that Edward is frozen at 17, everything around him moves forward. Edward would agree with me, that the moment he found Bella, everything in his life changed. It is pleasing to see that from a lonely boy with cool hair style he has transformed to a man. A married man. That makes him human in my eyes <3

Besides the wedding, my favorite scene for Breaking Dawn Part 1 is the conversation between Edward and Bella below. It was a simple scene, but it leaves mark on my heart. I favor this scene because Edward and Bella look like a normal maried couple, not the Edward and Bella. They are just another married couple fighting for what's left in their relationship. No matter whom you are, human or not, you must commit and fight to make things work. Love requires compassion.

Edward Cullen: I'm sorry I've been so angry.
Bella Swan: I would be too.
Edward Cullen: I've left you alone in this.
Bella Swan: Marriage!
Edward Cullen: Well, they say the first year is the hardest.

Overall, The Twilight Saga: Breaking Dawn Part 1 is awesome and wonderful. I got a feeling that having Stephanie Meyer as the producer is the secret ingredient. Loving you, Bill Condon! I'm not sure if you're a Twilighter, but you sure succeeded in putting the pieces together. You don't have to watch Twilight, New Moon and Eclipse to understand Breaking Dawn. It's all there. For Malaysians, please be informed that you'll feel (or must have felt) a little bit lost due to the cuts. But we have cleaner cuts for Breaking Dawn compare to Eclipse. You won't know what's missing, unless you're a Twilighter, who know details of the movie :p

Here and there, pieces of The Saga were brought together in Breaking Dawn, both from the books and previous 3 movies. Mostly from Twilight. As we all know, there were many details being omitted from the book or changed for the movie. Carlisle's cross is one bold statement that brought us all back to the day we started reading Twilight and the day we fall in love with the Saga. Edward's character was not properly introduced in Twilight, so they made a flashback scene where he got a chance to tell more about himself. We can see Edward lost in his thought in the wedding shoes scene. We wonder what was in his mind. The flashback is the answer. Furthermore, to include Sia's My Love during the wedding also brilliant. My Love was the background song when Edward proposes to Bella in Eclipse. Emotionally you're remembering the sweet moment.

Carter Burwell, we're glad to have you back with The Saga. Love, Death, Birth is perfect for Breaking Dawn Part 1 and to have the composition played as the opening for the movie is brilliant. Suddenly you're tuned into the mood. The composition speaks where words could not explain and you can feel the emotion flowing through you. You can understand Jacob's rage, both Edward and Bella's feeling and the best part: Bella's transformation. The touch of Bella's Lullaby is just nice to recall your memories of Twilight and refreshed our memory of how forever begins. The Saga is all about sacrifices, fights and the will to do something for the one we love - that is just what Love, Death, Birth is all about.

So that's all I got to say about Twilight Saga: Breaking Dawn Part 1 ^____^ Another year to wait!