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"Courage is the art of being the only one who knows you're scared to death." - Earl Wilson I feel courageous today upon receiving the news of my grandmother's health condition. She is the mother I grew up with. So yes, that is the feeling.

"You could search to the furthest reaches of the universe and never find anything more beautiful. So yes, I know that love is unconditional. But I also know that it can be unpredictable, unexpected, uncontrollable, unbearable and strangely easy to mistake for loathing, and... What I'm trying to say, Tristan is... I think I love you. Is this love, Tristan? I never imagined I'd know it for myself. My heart... It feels like my chest can barely contain it. Like it's trying to escape because it doesn't belong to me anymore. It belongs to you. And if you wanted it, I'd wish for nothing in exchange - no gifts. No goods. No demonstrations of devotion. Nothing but knowing you loved me too. Just your heart, in exchange for mine." ~ Yvaine, Stardust (2007) I am reading Stardust... <3

Assalamualaikum, On this peaceful Friday, I'd like to share a beautiful article by Yasmin Mogahed . In denial stage, it is our nature to blame. We either blame ourselves or others - some would even blame Allah. But blame only makes us more miserable. And what's worse, it is like a huge wall between us and acceptance that would allow us to think clearly and see the light. I learnt this lesson from La Tahzan few years back during my denial stage. It was a wakeup call. Apa yang berlaku bukan kerana apa yang kita buat atau tidak buat. Jika itu yang telah tertulis dalam lembaran takdir kita, buat lah apa pun, nothing will change. Allah doesn’t need any reason. Ini kerana sifat Allah yang harus. Harus bagi Allah melakukan atau meninggalkan sesuatu mengikut kehendak dan kudrat-Nya, yang langsung tidak dipengaruhi oleh sesiapapun. Allah bebas melakukan atau menjadikan sesuatu tanpa disebabkan oleh sesuatu peraturan atau tidak melakukannya. "Dan Tuhanmu menciptakan apa yang diranca...

Assalamualaikum, Setiap hari mesti berazam untuk jadi lebih baik. Setiap hari mesti ada keinginan untuk hijrah diri ke arah yang lebih baik. Di samping tu, mesti juga berdoa semoga dari keinginan tu datangnya tekad yang ikhlas terhadap Allah. Semoga Allah buka jalan-jalan kebaikan untuk kita sertai dan semoga Allah kurniakan istiqamah di dalam kumpulan tersebut. Perubahan adalah sesuatu yang payah untuk dilakukan dan kita tidak boleh bertindak sendirian tanpa bantuan Allah. So have the desire NOW . You never know when you'll get the opportunity. Kita tak tahu setakat mana usia kita. Dan bila jalan hijrah itu tiba, ambillah. Just saying. Wassalam.

Waiting for the Spring by Mitsuo Aida I felt that someone was looking at me. I turned my wheelchair And found a little flower blooming there. I couldn’t do it, or I didn’t do it. I wonder which one? If you spend all your time only thinking, The sun will set. A poem for my children. It matters not the path you choose Nor the way you walk it. What matters is living that life to its fullest. Assalamualaikum, Today is exactly 30 days before my 28th birthday. That means I have 30 days left to cheer and to enjoy being 27 years young! Hahaha. I always have this weird feeling about my birthday. The feeling of taking off from a high place and fly (or maybe just free fall!). No, it is not fear. It is more to excitement, I guess. It is like feeling rush of adrenaline through me. All my life, I just want to move to the next birthday after another. Being old doesn't really bother me that much (until recently, still not that much though). I was very ambitious back then. In the world I want to be...

While we try to teach our children all about life, Our children teach us what life is all about. ~Angela Schwindt Assalamualaikum, It was a weekend full of pictures and I personally adore these pictures of Hakimi and Syifa. I feel like both of them has grow up so much and are going to leave home soon... *Teary eyes* Hahaha. That is dramatic *wink* On the other hand, maybe I'm the one who's going to leave them growing up on their own... *sigh* I feel grateful for my interest in kids’ photography. Kids are not my expertise but somehow photography helps me to deal with my fear. And I figure out that Edward is lovable and can have effect on people. Hehehe. Rather than just a hobby and madly running around capturing pictures, I am actually getting so much in return from the kids - Syifa and Hakimi and others. I thought I was teaching them to smile to laugh to act properly. But it is really them giving me lesson through the small lens. Precious life lesson. Hakimi is a polite, timid ...

Assalamualaikum, "Hadapilah ujian hidup dengan mencari maksud di sebalik takdir-takdir Allah. Dengarlah suara tarbiah dan dakwah yang berbisik setiap kali kita diuji. Kebaikan dan keburukan hanya ada pada penilaian insan, tetapi di sisi Allah, apa yang ditakdirkan-Nya pasti satu kebaikan" . - Prakata; Nota Hati Seorang Lelaki , Ustaz Pahrol Mohamad Juoi. Tidak ada pembuka bicara yang lebih tepat selain kata-kata di atas. Hadirnya mendahului ujian, seakan persediaan dan motivasi. Satu kenyataan yang tidak dapat dinafikan justeru memandu diri ke arah ketenangan hati. Takdir dan ujian adalah 'tema' bulan Disember. Cahaya di hujung terowong mungkin. Padahal takdir dan ujian wujud seiring usia selagi bernyawa sebelum ajal tiba. Penutup kepada tahun yang panjang sekaligus bekalan ilmu untuk tahun seterusnya. Perjalan pendek dari Pulau Pinang ke Parit Buntar amat membuka minda. Pelajarannya mungkin tidak akan didapati walaupun dalam perjalan seribu batu kalau bukan kerana iz...

Assalamualaikum, Ujian dalam hidup itu bagus. Ia mengajar kita menjadi tabah. Ia menjadi kayu pengukur kepada ketabahan yang mungkin kita miliki. Umpama langit malam yang gelap, menyerlahkan bintang-bintang yang bergemerlapan. Allah tidak pernah berbohong, kita tidak akan diuji melebihi apa yang kita mampu. Jadi bertahanlah, dan carilah kekuatan dari kata-kataNya. Islam tidak pernah mendidik umatnya untuk berputus asa. Islam juga tidak pernah mendidik umatnya untuk keterlaluan dalam melayan kesedihan. Semua yang berlaku ada hikmahnya. Mintalah pada Allah, semoga kita dapat melihat hikmah kebijaksanaanNya. Wassalam.

The ultimate test in moving on is when the moment you decide to do so, what you're letting go suddenly come flying to you. Just saying.

I watched it twice and am ready for the third :p I'd like to start this review with Edward's wedding toast: "It's an extraordinary thing to meet someone who you can bare your soul to and accept you for what you are. I've been waiting, for what seems like a very long time, to get beyond what I am. With Bella I feel like I can finally begin. So I'd like to propose a toast to my beautiful bride. No measure of time with you will be long enough. But let's start with forever." Exactly. Zero reason not to like Edward <3 The pre-wedding was cut short. Very, very short. No Mercedes S600 Guard. No breaking the news to Charlie and Renee, so no changing color Charlie and motherly advice from Renee. But the mood is there. Charlie clearly doesn't happy with the wedding and Renee on the contrary is very happy about it. Bella is nervous and Edward is anxious. But I am grateful to see Alice having fun planning the wedding. In another words, bossing everybody. Lo...