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Assalamualaikum, Terjaga dari tidur pagi tadi dengan bermimpikan Abderrahman, anak kepada Allahyarham Ahmad Hakimi Hanapi, Pembantu Juruterbang MH17. Imej anakanda Abderrahman yang didukung rakan bapanya ketika solat jenazah pada hari Jumaat semacam terlekat difikiran. Jatuh sayang kepadanya... Kesemua 298 mangsa yang terkorban dalam tragedi MH17 membawa cerita dan pengajaran yang berbekas di hati. Tapi entah kenapa, kisah keluarga Allahyarham Ahmad Hakimi, isterinya Asmaa dan anakanda Abderrahman terasa lebih dekat dan lebih peribadi. Instead of me reaching out to them, I feel like they are reaching out to me... 'Perkenalan' dengan mereka membuatkan aku mahu menjadi hamba Allah yang lebih baik. Aku mahu lebih dekat dengan Allah. Aku mahu kutip lebih ilmu untuk mempersiapkan diri di jalan Allah. Kata-kata bapa kepada Allahyarham Ahmad Hakimi umpama seal kepada banyak perkara... Ya, apa yang terjadi ini telah membuktikan betapa Allah itu Maha Pengasih dan Maha ...

Assalamualaikum, 22 Ogos 2014 Hari Berkabung Malaysia Hari ni Malaysia berkabung. Hari ni Malaysia menyambut kepulangan 20 mangsa tragedi MH17... Mereka telah pulang ke destinasi yang abadi dan pasti - ke sisi Illahi. Alhamdulillah, selepas penantian yang panjang, akhirnya kini mereka pulang ke pangkuan keluarga, rakan-rakan serta negara yang menyayangi mereka. Bagi aku, simpati dan empati adalah sifat manusia. Tidak ada kayu ukur atau peraturan tentang cara tepat untuk menzahirkannya. Jadi zahirkanlah dengan cara yang terbaik dan paling manusia. Berkongsi kesedihan tidak akan mengurangkan kegembiraan (kepada yang memberi) dan tidak mengurangkan sengsara (kepada yang menerima), tetapi mereka yang pernah kehilangan orang tersayang akan faham keperluannya. I don't know any of them personally, but this tragedy has brings us together. While driving to work this morning, I can't shake the thought that somehow I might have crossed path with one of them.....

While driving to office this morning, BenHafiz delivered the sad news - my favorite (fictional character) doctor has passed away. At the age of 63, Robin Williams - the Hunter 'Patch' Adams that prescribe laughter, the Mr. Keating that redefined poetry, the Peter Pan that taught us happy thoughts, the robot who wants to be a human being it break your heart when he finally did - passed away. What's sadder, the word "suicide" and "depression" appear together in the same line. I've seen him in many movies, but Patch Adams stuck with me. I don't know how we first met, but I am happy to say that it is through Patch Adams. I can't recall the movie in detail, but the soul and spirit still ticks inside me. He made us laugh and taught us happy thoughts yet he was battling depression. I can only hope that he was not fighting alone and that he was loved till the end. O captain my captain, thank you. You will be missed.

You pick up a gun. You know it is loaded with real bullets. You aim it at your friend. With the knowledge of the consequences, will you pull the trigger? If you know that your action or words or treatment to another person would certainly hurt him/her, will you still proceed with it? Being the one who always took the bullets, I can't seem to understand how a responsible and sane person can do that. I do not mean random spontaneous action - that I understand. I can't understand people who demand people to accept them for who they are but refuse to accept the other party for who they are. Not just that, they blame the other party for being weak and sensitive and insist them to puff up while they go around breaking heart. Bam! Bam! Bam! You just kill a soul. Again.