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Bila Berasa Lelah dan Tidak Berdaya

Assalamualaikum,
Memahami jawapan dari Allah adalah satu rahmat. Semoga aku dikalangan orang yang bertuah, yang dapat memahami 'bicara' Allah. Amiin Allahhumma Amiin.
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Jika kau berasa lelah dan tidak berdaya daripada usaha yang sepertinya sia-sia Allah tahu betapa keras engkau sudah berusaha.
Ketika kau sudah menangis sekian lama dan hatimu masih terasa pedih Allah sudah menghitung air matamu.
Jika kaufikir bahawa hidupmu sedang menunggu sesuatu Dan waktu terasa berlalu begitu saja Allah sedang menunggu bersama denganmu.
Ketika kaufikir bahawa kau sudah mencuba segalanya dan tidak tahu hendak berbuat apa lagi Allah punya jawapannya.
Ketika segala sesuatu menjadi tidak masuk akal dan kau berasa tertekan Allah dapat menenangkanmu.
Jika tiba-tiba kau dapat melihat jejak-jejak harapan Allah sedang berbisik kepadamu.
Ketika segala sesuatu berjalan lancar dan kau berasa ingin mengucap syukur Allah telah memberimu rahmat.
Ketika sesuatu yang indah terjadi dan kau dipenuhi ketakjuban Allah telah ter…

A Picture with Thousand of Beautiful Comments

Assalamualaikum,

Alhamdulillah. Everything is getting better - health, mood, feeling, spirit... heart - all moving into a positive direction. Hari yang indah; secara spontan aku berbisik "hari yang baik untuk membuat keputusan yang baik".

I slept well last night, after weeks of sleepless nights. When you're not living the days properly, you will not be able to rest properly at night. Nursing my health conditions while juggling between career and volunteer works, I have push myself into a fatigue state over my limit. I had terrible Tuesday yesterday. I woke up on the wrong side of the bed *and* under the weather. There were hints of gastritis and I have no appetite for food. I had to forced my self to eat some breakfast before dragging my foot for work; *teary eyed*.

But somehow I manage to pull myself together and search the best from the dimension, Alhamdulillah, for the inspiration. Two Caucasian male visitors chatted about their preferable morning drink made me smile…

Inconsolable

Today is big fat *of course* cute panda practicing kungfu no stop over the weekend Monday. With completely failed mix-and-match outfit. *Sigh* I don't feel like working or eating, but the ticking time and headache were killing me. So I fished the mini Snickers from my running bag and bite it off as breakfast. Some sugar sometime helps. I strolled the usual road half awake and keep reminding myself that I must maintain my focus until I get into the building. Be safe.

As I was approaching the main gate, my mind slowly tuned into a more stable condition. There are challenges I need to face behind those doors and feeling like a panda certainly not the best way to handle it. Take a deep breath, jawab salam pegawai keselamatan sambil senyum 7 saat and I am good to go.... after I paused a few seconds in front of my favorite photo hangin in the walkway.
Now I am good. I think.
While in the elevator, I realised that I am humming to Backstreet Boys' "Inconsolable". Entah seja…

Under The Weather Exit Door

When you are under the weather and you did not get *the* attention from specific individuals in a list your unwell mind created: 1) Read recap on Korean drama/variety shows that make you smile/laugh 2) Listen to nice songs; songs from your *time* 3) Eat whatever food you have in mind 4) Repeat
I am not myself when I am unwell. If you think I am pushy and demanding and manja, multiply that thought by 3 - you'll get the unwell me. Today is one of those days. *This* is what you get for being unprepared and unfit. I ran 11.8 km for Valdor Run 2015 last Sunday (19-April-2015). Yeay. Love the medal. This time, it is really blood and sweat. Jari kaki melecet sampai berdarah. Not only that, I had the worst after-run Monday yesterday. Rasa nak demam dan satu badan - bukan kaki je - sakit. Macam masuk Ultra Marathon atau Iron Man dah gayanya. Silly me. (I will properly write about the run when I am feeling better)
All I need is sleep (lots of it, maybe one hour for every liter of water I d…

Speed Dating

Assalamualaikum,
It's only Tuesday and I am already losing it. My days usually consist of Monday, 3 Thursdays, Friday and weekend. Tapi minggu ni hari Khamis pertama tak kunjung tiba. Hari ni ialah hari Selasa! Huhuhu.

Penat.
Kak Dilah cadangkan aku cuba "Halal Speed Dating". Because I love Kak Dilah dearly, I promise to try. The first wave of reluctance hits me when I can't find the organizer of the event, yet I need to give my personal information. Then they asked for my wali's email and phone number. Okay! I can't make myself to proceed further, so I closed the online form.
During lunch, I re-opened the site. I manage to fill out 70% of it. Then I got stuck here: * What obstacles do you have to get yourself married ["pour your heart out", they say~] * Dear future Husband [Share your hopes and dreams. What you would like to tell your future husband. Write in point form.] * Your expectation from your future Husband [Write about your genuine expectati…

Selfish Selfless

"Sometimes you have to be selfish to be selfless." - Edward Albert
Human beings are selfish being. We are selfish in each decision we made, each direction we choose to run, each path we choose to walk, each option we consider. We are selfish for not choosing.
If you're going to be selfless, be selfless with no regret.
If you're going to be selfish, be selfish for something worthy.

That is the price we all need to pay; whether you're selfish or selfless. I am sorry.

Ujian Buat Aqidah

Assalamualaikum,
Berpinar mata dua tiga hari ni. Allah sahaja yang tahu segala apa yang ada dalam hati ni. Bohonglah kalau dikatakan tidak terkesan. Kita manusia; hanya manusia. Tapi kita nombor satu: hanya HAMBA. Hamba ALLAH. Nah wake up call, seperti yang dikongsikan oleh seorang saudara. Aku sangat setuju. Berhati-hati dan beringat-ingat dalam berkata-kata. In Islam, there's always a better way to do something. Mengingatkan sendiri, dan semua yang dikasihi. Semoga bermanfaat.
GST, Ujian Buat Aqidah
Berhati-hati dalam berkata... Bagi saya, GST ini adalah ujian keimanan buat kita semua. Kerajaan tu hanya "asbab" untuk Allah berikan ujian. Jangan kita terlampau melampau dalam mempersoalkan hal rezeki seolah-olah kita menyatakan Allah itu miskin dan tidak mampu rezekikan kita seperti biasa selepas perlaksanaan GST.
Iman kena jaga betul-betul. Jika perlu kita kritik, kritiklah dengan ilmiah untuk penambahbaikan kepada semua. Jangan dikaitkan soal rezeki, kemiskinan, kekayaan …