Thursday, February 24, 2011

A Depressing Evening


It's a depressing evening... Hari pertama selesema memang sungguh merimaskan. The in-house clinic's doctor annoyed to my spine and I thought I developed a silent grudge towards the nurse who insisted me to see the doctor.

A depressing day accompanied by a depressing song. It would be more dramatic if I can have a cup of warm tea here in this wintry office. That sounds so tempting... But on top of everything, I just want to lay down and doze off.

Lagu "Penakut" by Yuna ni adalah OST untuk telemovie "Isteriku Zulaikha" di TV9 malam tadi. Kisahnya: cinta tiga segi... Not my favorite, it makes me cry. I just hate the "I'm-betraying-my-good-spouse" theme. Hate it, so much! I can't understand how a person could betray other person when that person is so nice. I know why – SELFISH – pure selfish. But the telemovie was sweet. Ringkas dan padat. Dialog pun mudah faham dan mendalam.

Till next time...

by Yuna

Tak semua kau rancang akan berlaku
Mungkin nasib tak menyebelahi aku
Entah mengapa engkau yang aku cinta
Mungkin lebih baik kau ku lepas saja

Oh ini tidak adil tidak adil baginya
ini tidak adil tidak adil bagiku
ini tidak adil untuk kau bertanya jika aku mencintaimu juga
tidak adil tidak adil baginya

kau tak penah cuba memahami aku
cinta kau ucap tak penah engkau tunjuk
dan bila tiba saat ku kehilangan
beban yang tak penah kau cuba ringankan

Oh ini tidak adil tidak adil baginya
ini tidak adil tidak adil bagiku
ini tidak adil untuk kau bertanya jika aku mencintaimu juga
kau bukan milikku

Dan aku memang penakut
Mengakui cinta kepadamu
Seribu kali ku cuba ucapkan
Bila bersamamu
Kau bukan milikku
Dan engkau pun tahu
Kau bukan milikku

Friday, February 18, 2011

Cerita Tayar


Lagi cerita Angel dan tayar beliau...
Pagi Jumaat yang ceria, sebelum jam 7 pagi dah bertolak dari rumah. Hajat hati nak singgah Caltex untuk isi angin tayar. Fara Fauzana baru je nak putarkan panggilan hangit tatkala aku dan Angel tiba di Caltex. Ada 2 bikers tengah isi angin motorsikal masing-masing. Then tiba la turn Angel.

Ini first time nak isi angin di Caltex. Biasanya isi di Shell, tapi hari Rabu dah kantoi pam rosak. Jadi untuk tidak ambil risiko, gamble je la ke Caltex ni. Lagipun dah survey, pamnya pun digital. Teet teet teet. Tayar depan sebelah kiri (yang tercabut rim cap tu) settle. Beralih kepada tayar depan sebelah kanan............ Lama, tapi tak gak cecah 200 KPa. Bila check, ALAMAK TAYAR DAH KEMPIS!!!!

Jadilah aku manusia panik di pagi hari. Tambah panik bila 2 kereta sedang berbaris di belakang Angel bersama satu motorsikal. Fuh.. fuh.. bernafas... Try lagi, adjust itu ini. Tayar dah terus flat! Fuh... fuh... bernafas.... Cemane ni! Huhuhuh T____T
Oh tidakkkkkkkkkkk!

Sebelum aku sempat jadi semakin gelabah, pakcik yang naik motorsikal tu dah datang tolong. Alhamdulillah... Tak sempat la muka aku jadi semakin biru. Memang pam tersebut ada masalah. Patutlah biker sebelum tu pun macam ada masalah nak isi angin. Akhirnya, tayar Angel oke semula dan aku terus tak jadi nak isi angin 2 tayar belakang. Hahaha. Nak dijadikan cerita, pam di Shell dah oke. So aku isi angin sekali lagi. Just in case kan :p

Kejadian pagi ni adalah salah satu 'ketakutan' aku. Hehehe. Ini satu pendidikan! ^____^


Thursday, February 17, 2011

Rim Cap


Angel lost one of her rim cap. When, unknown. How, bigger unknown. There are three possible reasons according to my friends. 1. I was driving too fast - well, I did, but I would've notice it (maybe the audio was too loud, 'Aini!), 2. I drove Angel into a big crack - which I think ridiculous because I didn't recall any hideous incident (Ya ya ya :p) and 3. Somebody rip it off - erm, but why steal only ONE cap??

I hate to think that I might have to visit a car accessory shop or a car workshop to bargain a new cap or a SET of new caps. Ugh! And I don't need the whole set. What am I supposed to do with the remaining 3 caps anyway? Or is it worth to change the whole set? Nag, nag, nag... I can't believe that I am mostly bothered by the fact that Angel only lost one rim cap. I am sure guys out there are laughing to my silly complicated thoughts. Ok, just laugh :p

I know it's nothing and if I just push myself a little bit, I can do it. The truth is I have this silly fear of embarrassing myself doing the mechanical stuff. I will ask stupid questions and the promoter will have to squeeze his brain to explain to me in the most un-mechanical term. That makes me feel far less beautiful.

Sigh. Let's see what I am going to do about it. Since the lost did not affect Angel's performance as a car (daaa~), so I don't have any additional concern. I'll just pretend that she lost an earring ^____^


Monday, February 7, 2011

Big Waves


Being a Melancholy I am naturally oversensitive to my environment - that is only a part of it. I used to think that I do have invisible antennas on top of my head - sensing and searching for the slightest change in the atmosphere. Hahaha. Ya, feel like a slimy alien :p I used to be expressive too - more expressive compare to me today. So you can guess how everything counts those days. Don’t messes up or you'll read it somewhere. Hahaha.

My advice to other Melancholy - do not, I re-emphasize: DO NOT write or say anything when you are in your most oversensitive moment. If you proceed to express what your think, you'd most probably regret it after all the hormones gone. Believe me. Just keep quiet and calm yourself until you can reason the options and possibilities. I do understand the urge to 'make the world a better place' and the feeling that you are 'responsible to make things right'. But darling, it's only us.

And please cut the 'sixth sense' and 'instinct' crap. People like us must learn to differentiate between sixth sense, instinct and the oversensitive flow. Emotions are good, but too much of it makes other people nauseas. I admit that sometime we were right - something did happen. But come on... Haven't we learned enough from the movie? Hahaha.

Some emotion and feeling are best to be kept to ourselves. If we still want to make things better, there's always more than one way to do it - spilling it like bullets is not a wise decision. We never meant to hurt anybody, but if we are aware that we are hurting others - of course we'd know that - maybe we need to do some reflection.

To any of you who happen to have a Melancholy in your network and he/she is a pain - well, please bear with us. Like I said, we mean no harm. We are just being ourselves - ouch a lame excuse :p. Hehehe. It's like big waves that hit us - not many of us can swim through that.

If you wonder how to stop the waves or how to ensure that you did not tickles the antenna - the answer is NOTHING. I am speaking for my self - I'd still be over sensitive no matter what you do. What makes a different is how a Melancholy handles the waves. BUT to put all the responsibility to the Melancholy is unfair. We all have responsibility to one another. One sided commitment won't work.

When I have big waves coming on my way:
1) I don't write - very, very dangerous. Even if I do, I'd try to write about something else.
2) I don't read, I don't watch shows with thick emotions - it will make things worse.
3) I'll keep silent - the best policy.

Note: I am surfing through the waves… Weeeeeee~


Wednesday, February 2, 2011



Even with all the screaming, I really love C.N Blue's version of Banmal Song. *Swoon!* I do agree, C.N Blue should release their version of Banmal Song. BOICEs are going to love it... so much! ^___^
This song sounds more romantic, sincere, more lovely, cuter and sweeter [the list really can grow more~] with all members singing it - I mean ALL! *blush!*
My heart skips a beat [or two] when listening to Yong Hwa’s version.
I got struck by lightning when Jong Hyun sings it.
I can't help but love this song more and more when Min Hyuk and Jung Shin also sing it!

BOICE Thailand - you are sooo lucky and I must say, you all rocks!
Note: I know for some of you, I am so childish for loving the song too much. I can’t help it! Hehehe ^___^ You see, it is hard to find a song [we couldn’t even understand without translation] that make us blush and gives us goose bump. When I found it, I don’t mind giving some space to the childish part of me to have her moment~


Tuesday, February 1, 2011

The Banmal Song


14th January 2011 - Banmal Song was released as C.N Blue's Jung Yong Hwa digital single. This song - renamed to "For First-Time Lover" - was firstly introduced through We Got Married in one of YongSeo's (Yong Hwa and Seo Hyun) couple segment.

I know I have good reasons for loving January! ^___^
Love the couple, love C.N Blue and of course lots of love for Jung Yong Hwa.

Enjoy the song.
It is full of love!

More on Banmal Song here and here.